its been a week since i last posted any thing,

its been a very very busy week,

so many things to do,

so little time,

we had physics test today,

did not even studied for it.

as usual,

i tried to cheat, looked at shinne's paper,

then at han rong's,

but still,

could not bring myself to cheat,

sometimes i do ask myself was am i such a goody-two-shoes?

well?

today is hui wen's birthday,

lin qiang and i ran out of school to find the backery near our school,

lol,

seems as if we ran 2.4 man,

well, managed to buy a cake for her and brought it back to school,

when we were back,

i tried to call the class of 1s20 to celebrate for hui wen,

but it seems that everyone was doing their own things,

nobody seems to care,

sometimes i wonder,

when we all say that we gotta bond together as a class,

are we doing it by our actions?

or is it me that these people hate to see?

is it that i am an "extra"?

i do not have an answer,

but i could see that hui wen and joa was rather disappointed with it,

i was really schocked to see the difference between hui wen's and rina's birthday,

is it because that rina has friends to help her celebrate?

or is it that because hui wen is a rather quiet person that the class do not seems to know?

i have got no idea,

but i felt the sharp ice pericing into my back,

its so weird,

we have know each other(1s20) for so long,

why like this?

imagine a scene,

a class,

together in the canteen,

waiting for me and lin qiang to be back,

they do their own things,

then with the arrival of the cake, people just continue doing their stuff,

i gotta "invite" people to sing the birthday song,

and it was sung with great reluctance.

well?

if i can remeber,

seems as though nobody said happy birthday to her,

they just took the cake,

ate,

and continue to do their stuff...

am i too sensetive?

am i crazy?

or is this a way of life?

are we all so selfish?

or is it me thats the problem?

i do not know,

but at least i felt the coldness of wads its like,

to be left there...

i am really disappointed with the class,

or is this the way that people is?

well?

had a pretty rough day today,

again,

i hate it when mrs tan,

my econs teacher told me,

"jun liang, must do well for my econs test ar..."

its,

putting an high expectation on me,

and i hate to fail,

at least fail people's expectations,

i hate it,

but well,

i am thankful that this kinda pressure is driving me nuts,

at least its positive yea?

oh well,

i have always thought that in life,

one will never find a friend that will always be there for u,

to help u,

to listen to u,

i think i have found this person,

and its this freaking gay lin qiang,

man,

if u have found the greatest friend,

u haven meet him.

this guy,

is like a brother to me,

he is always there to help me,

to accompany me for dinner,

its like nth to him,

but to me,

its alot, alot.

i think,

i will go crazy in srjc without him...

well,

"a friend in need, is a friend indeed"

as i thought about my life,

wad am i going to be in the future,

i feel very unstable,

it seems that my world is falling apart.

i am feeling that i have been stretched too much,

i need to let go,

i will be going mad soon,

so much to do,

so little time.

honestly,

i am very very afraid to fail,

i just do not want to fail,

but

i want to score well,

i want to achieve my dreams,

no matter how hard it is,

i will work.

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i am having a very very bad time with this person in my pw group.

this person seems to be jealous of everybit of me,

i do think that he thinks to highly of himself,

the story goes like this,

he is from another class,

attached to my group for gpp,

and honestly,

he just want things to be done his way,

he rejects all of my groups ideas,

critisize us,

and thinks he is superior,

well?

whats worst,

he is jealous of my achievements,

its ok to be jealous of one person,

but that does not mean that when i am pround of it (but not boasting about it)

i cannot have picture on friendster/msn on my achievements,

why can't i show them?

is not as if i am trying to make a statment or anything,

but i am proud of my achievements,

but the thing that bugs me most,

is that he always seem to think that i am a lousy leader and leading my team wrongly

and he says

"trust me, i am an ex-prefect..."

its like,

utter nonsense,

i know that i do go wrong sometimes while leading my group,

but who the hell he thinks he is to critisize me like that?

if he wanna comapre,

fine,

i shall lay my cards down,

if he wana compare,

FINE,

lets just see who got better cards,

i do not want to hate him,

i just cannot stand him,

if he continues,

i will lose my temper,

i will crack his skull,

again,

i wonder why?

why is he so affected with wad i have achieved,

ITS ALL THE PAST,

ITS HISTORY,

ITS ALL WAD I HAVE ALREADY DONE,

WHY IS HE SO WORKED UP WITH IT?

i got no idea if this is childishness for a 17 year old,

i really got no idea,

but i will forgive,

i will forget,

and start a new,

please pray for me...

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

wad has life got for a fish like me?

i am confused, busy, fustrated,

i think i am screwed,

i need to rest,

i need to cool down thats wad they told me,

in the end,

i got to places they cannot go,

should i cool down?

or should i go full steam ahead?

i am indeed,

a fishoutofwater,

i am in the middle of nowhere.

its been a week since i last posted any thing,

its been a very very busy week,

so many things to do,

so little time,

we had physics test today,

did not even studied for it.

as usual,

i tried to cheat, looked at shinne's paper,

then at han rong's,

but still,

could not bring myself to cheat,

sometimes i do ask myself was am i such a goody-two-shoes?

well?

today is hui wen's birthday,

lin qiang and i ran out of school to find the backery near our school,

lol,

seems as if we ran 2.4 man,

well, managed to buy a cake for her and brought it back to school,

when we were back,

i tried to call the class of 1s20 to celebrate for hui wen,

but it seems that everyone was doing their own things,

nobody seems to care,

sometimes i wonder,

when we all say that we gotta bond together as a class,

are we doing it by our actions?

or is it me that these people hate to see?

is it that i am an "extra"?

i do not have an answer,

but i could see that hui wen and joa was rather disappointed with it,

i was really schocked to see the difference between hui wen's and rina's birthday,

is it because that rina has friends to help her celebrate?

or is it that because hui wen is a rather quiet person that the class do not seems to know?

i have got no idea,

but i felt the sharp ice pericing into my back,

its so weird,

we have know each other(1s20) for so long,

why like this?

imagine a scene,

a class,

together in the canteen,

waiting for me and lin qiang to be back,

they do their own things,

then with the arrival of the cake, people just continue doing their stuff,

i gotta "invite" people to sing the birthday song,

and it was sung with great reluctance.

well?

if i can remeber,

seems as though nobody said happy birthday to her,

they just took the cake,

ate,

and continue to do their stuff...

am i too sensetive?

am i crazy?

or is this a way of life?

are we all so selfish?

or is it me thats the problem?

i do not know,

but at least i felt the coldness of wads its like,

to be left there...

i am really disappointed with the class,

or is this the way that people is?

well?

had a pretty rough day today,

again,

i hate it when mrs tan,

my econs teacher told me,

"jun liang, must do well for my econs test ar..."

its,

putting an high expectation on me,

and i hate to fail,

at least fail people's expectations,

i hate it,

but well,

i am thankful that this kinda pressure is driving me nuts,

at least its positive yea?

oh well,

i have always thought that in life,

one will never find a friend that will always be there for u,

to help u,

to listen to u,

i think i have found this person,

and its this freaking gay lin qiang,

man,

if u have found the greatest friend,

u haven meet him.

this guy,

is like a brother to me,

he is always there to help me,

to accompany me for dinner,

its like nth to him,

but to me,

its alot, alot.

i think,

i will go crazy in srjc without him...

well,

"a friend in need, is a friend indeed"

as i thought about my life,

wad am i going to be in the future,

i feel very unstable,

it seems that my world is falling apart.

i am feeling that i have been stretched too much,

i need to let go,

i will be going mad soon,

so much to do,

so little time.

honestly,

i am very very afraid to fail,

i just do not want to fail,

but

i want to score well,

i want to achieve my dreams,

no matter how hard it is,

i will work.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

i am having a very very bad time with this person in my pw group.

this person seems to be jealous of everybit of me,

i do think that he thinks to highly of himself,

the story goes like this,

he is from another class,

attached to my group for gpp,

and honestly,

he just want things to be done his way,

he rejects all of my groups ideas,

critisize us,

and thinks he is superior,

well?

whats worst,

he is jealous of my achievements,

its ok to be jealous of one person,

but that does not mean that when i am pround of it (but not boasting about it)

i cannot have picture on friendster/msn on my achievements,

why can't i show them?

is not as if i am trying to make a statment or anything,

but i am proud of my achievements,

but the thing that bugs me most,

is that he always seem to think that i am a lousy leader and leading my team wrongly

and he says

"trust me, i am an ex-prefect..."

its like,

utter nonsense,

i know that i do go wrong sometimes while leading my group,

but who the hell he thinks he is to critisize me like that?

if he wanna comapre,

fine,

i shall lay my cards down,

if he wana compare,

FINE,

lets just see who got better cards,

i do not want to hate him,

i just cannot stand him,

if he continues,

i will lose my temper,

i will crack his skull,

again,

i wonder why?

why is he so affected with wad i have achieved,

ITS ALL THE PAST,

ITS HISTORY,

ITS ALL WAD I HAVE ALREADY DONE,

WHY IS HE SO WORKED UP WITH IT?

i got no idea if this is childishness for a 17 year old,

i really got no idea,

but i will forgive,

i will forget,

and start a new,

please pray for me...

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

wad has life got for a fish like me?

i am confused, busy, fustrated,

i think i am screwed,

i need to rest,

i need to cool down thats wad they told me,

in the end,

i got to places they cannot go,

should i cool down?

or should i go full steam ahead?

i am indeed,

a fishoutofwater,

i am in the middle of nowhere.