it been 2 days since i last posted

well,

looking through my posts,

i realised such a fool i have been,

been thinking alot over the weekends,

besides completeing my hw,

where i still do not know how to do summation as well as atomic structure,

i have come to terms with myself.

i realised that i have been a sickening ass

complaining about how stress out my life is,

i need to look at life on another side,

my view was change when i met my group for GPP on friday...

shereen,

a girl from my group,

to the least of my understanding,

has to give tution to at least 3 different persons during the weekends,

if i am not wrong, she still gives tution to many other during the week,

why she does that,

i do not think i have to go any further,

this has made to to think that i am a very,very lucky person.

do any of u guys need to give tution?

not because u want to, but because u need to.

this makes me think,

how the minority of us,

including me,

in 1s20,

find it so hard to finish our work?

wad if we are in the shoes of shereen?

i think i will die.

i have been making fun of her crying when she has a cold,

and once she replied,

"even if i cry,
i will not cry in front of u guys"

this makes me really think very very hard,

we are both 17,

we are entitled to joy,

laughter,

fun,

etc.

and we do compliant abt almost everything under the sun,

i think we need to think again.

u see me going nuts abt my life,

wad abt shereen?

it is tough for her.

we all know,

but she never fails to smile everytime u talk to her.

man...

i take my hats off for u gal,

~salute~

as i try to find ways to come to terms with myself,

i realised that i am not doing this myself,

i have friends whom often pop by on msn,

asking me if i am doing fine with my work,

of these people,

mikhail,

marcus sng,

prakash, and a couple few

girls from 1s20 cheering me on during my 2.4

i am always so grateful to these guys,

even though we are so far apart,

these words do mean a lot to me,

these friends do help me when i am falling,

without these dudes,

man...

i could be doing some crazy stuff now...

u might not wanna know.

am i still stress?

u can say i feel like quiting,

and i mean everything.

but god has put infront of me all these stuff...

for me to see to feel...

am i going to just give up like that?

yes the fight is tough,

but there are people out there whom are worst off,

or even there to support me.

i do not want to let them down,

neither myself.

but,

even though words goes on a million years,

the human spirit is weak,

human are weak,

including me.

its hard,

but.

netertheless,

its still bugs me alot when i caould not slove a question and have to wait till the next tutorial to clear my doubts,

perhaps its time to chase my teacher...

my dream...

to be a pilot,

the cream of the crop,

am i up to the challenge?

i think i will crumble and fall on my way there,

but still,

i gotta try,

i will try till, i fall dead from the stress and pressures i have.


cos its what i have always wanted


well,

again, i have spent my week ends doing tutorials,

and nth else,

was watching "goong" again,

guess i am addicted to it again,

or is it yoon eun hye that i am seeing only?

is not that i love her or anything,

but the character she plays is the kinda girl whom i wish i will marry someday,

always so cheerful and happy,

funny and crazy like me...

lol,

besides,

she is pretty too...

ha,

i sound like some despo now...

well,

i am a guys right?

admiring girls is normal as long as i do not have those dirty thoughts abt them...

wrost if i am thinking of guys....

lol.

well,

lifes gotta go on...

and so well/

"like a fish out of water,
god shown me as i struggled,
birds going down into the water,
now, as i think,
who is in trouble now?"

it been 2 days since i last posted

well,

looking through my posts,

i realised such a fool i have been,

been thinking alot over the weekends,

besides completeing my hw,

where i still do not know how to do summation as well as atomic structure,

i have come to terms with myself.

i realised that i have been a sickening ass

complaining about how stress out my life is,

i need to look at life on another side,

my view was change when i met my group for GPP on friday...

shereen,

a girl from my group,

to the least of my understanding,

has to give tution to at least 3 different persons during the weekends,

if i am not wrong, she still gives tution to many other during the week,

why she does that,

i do not think i have to go any further,

this has made to to think that i am a very,very lucky person.

do any of u guys need to give tution?

not because u want to, but because u need to.

this makes me think,

how the minority of us,

including me,

in 1s20,

find it so hard to finish our work?

wad if we are in the shoes of shereen?

i think i will die.

i have been making fun of her crying when she has a cold,

and once she replied,

"even if i cry,
i will not cry in front of u guys"

this makes me really think very very hard,

we are both 17,

we are entitled to joy,

laughter,

fun,

etc.

and we do compliant abt almost everything under the sun,

i think we need to think again.

u see me going nuts abt my life,

wad abt shereen?

it is tough for her.

we all know,

but she never fails to smile everytime u talk to her.

man...

i take my hats off for u gal,

~salute~

as i try to find ways to come to terms with myself,

i realised that i am not doing this myself,

i have friends whom often pop by on msn,

asking me if i am doing fine with my work,

of these people,

mikhail,

marcus sng,

prakash, and a couple few

girls from 1s20 cheering me on during my 2.4

i am always so grateful to these guys,

even though we are so far apart,

these words do mean a lot to me,

these friends do help me when i am falling,

without these dudes,

man...

i could be doing some crazy stuff now...

u might not wanna know.

am i still stress?

u can say i feel like quiting,

and i mean everything.

but god has put infront of me all these stuff...

for me to see to feel...

am i going to just give up like that?

yes the fight is tough,

but there are people out there whom are worst off,

or even there to support me.

i do not want to let them down,

neither myself.

but,

even though words goes on a million years,

the human spirit is weak,

human are weak,

including me.

its hard,

but.

netertheless,

its still bugs me alot when i caould not slove a question and have to wait till the next tutorial to clear my doubts,

perhaps its time to chase my teacher...

my dream...

to be a pilot,

the cream of the crop,

am i up to the challenge?

i think i will crumble and fall on my way there,

but still,

i gotta try,

i will try till, i fall dead from the stress and pressures i have.


cos its what i have always wanted


well,

again, i have spent my week ends doing tutorials,

and nth else,

was watching "goong" again,

guess i am addicted to it again,

or is it yoon eun hye that i am seeing only?

is not that i love her or anything,

but the character she plays is the kinda girl whom i wish i will marry someday,

always so cheerful and happy,

funny and crazy like me...

lol,

besides,

she is pretty too...

ha,

i sound like some despo now...

well,

i am a guys right?

admiring girls is normal as long as i do not have those dirty thoughts abt them...

wrost if i am thinking of guys....

lol.

well,

lifes gotta go on...

and so well/

"like a fish out of water,
god shown me as i struggled,
birds going down into the water,
now, as i think,
who is in trouble now?"