wad a week, the hw is never ending, the tests are comming in, the chem practical, everything is back, on full speed. almost every teacher has approached me, saying how disappointed they are to see my grades like that. they are always saying how much i need to work hard since i came to SRJC with this "potential". wth. its like, comeon, i am like one of the weakest person in class, my put so much pressure on me? even my PE tachers are givin me the pressures "work hard for your NAPFA..." argh...

i just had a revelation today, i realised that i will be sitting for A levels in about 12 months... wow, i still do not understand chem, phy and maths. 2 H2s... one H1...how am i going to go on like that? no matter how i study, i seem so demoralised, so angry, so tired... besides, i totally screwed up my chinese oral when i just skipped one paragraph cos i dunno how to read the chinese characters. damn.

i have receieved the letter from SYFC... and guess what, i am selected. i am not happy, neither am i disappointed. i got alot of doubts but hey, i never even thought i could pass the health test. i did, and now, i am in the private pilot's licence course. i really do not know what to expect, but well, thats means more late nights, more mugging.

this week, i heard LQ really say words that i did not think will come out of his mouth, but it eventually did, it was words of doubt, and a little self denial. he was really doubtful of 1. GP, and 2. being a pilot. i could really sense the fear that he carries, but as soon as he says it, he was back to himself again. MAN sia...

anyway... lifes back to how it should be like, but i am still very distracted. i do not really feel the confidence i need to carry on.i just feel so lost.

and, i am freaking angry. damn, it seems like 70% of the PW work is done by me, and me alone. and ppl in my team do not trust me. WTH. its as if i am like a stupid fool moving around... argh!
am i so difficult to trust? damn. how i wish i was back in SAS, where i could simply give commands to peopel and they will follow, request from my fellow PART mates, and they will willingly help me. ARGH!

i need slp.

Read My Mind

on the corner of main street
just tryin' to keep it in line
you say you wanna move on and
you say I'm falling behind
can you read my mind?can you read my mind?
make me her cheer up when-ever
I never really gave up on
breakin' out of this two-star town
I got the green light
I got a little fight
I'm gonna turn this thing around
can you read my mind?can you read my mind?
The good old days
the honest man
the restless heart
the promised land
a subtle kiss
that no one sees
a broken wrist
and big trapeze
so oh I don't mind
if you don't mind'cause I don't shine
if you don't shine
before you go
can you read my mind?
Its funny how you just break down
waitin' on some sign
I pull up to the front of your drive
waywith magic soakin' my spine
can you read my mind?can you read my mind?
The teenage queen
the loaded gun
the drop dead dream
the chosen one
a southern drawla world unseen
a city wall
and a trampoline
So oh I don't mind
if you don't mind'cause I don't shine
if you don't shinebefore you jump
tell me what you find
when you read my mind
Slippin in my faith
until I fall
he never returned that call
woman, open the door
don't let it sting
I wanna breathe that fire again
She saidI don't mind
if you don't mind'cause I don't shine
if you don't shine
put your back on me put your back on me
put your back on me(ooooooohhhh)
The stars are blazing
like rebel diamonds
cut out of the sun
when you read my mind

i doubt u realised, but i have been there for a very very very long time, do you even know i am there?

wad a week, the hw is never ending, the tests are comming in, the chem practical, everything is back, on full speed. almost every teacher has approached me, saying how disappointed they are to see my grades like that. they are always saying how much i need to work hard since i came to SRJC with this "potential". wth. its like, comeon, i am like one of the weakest person in class, my put so much pressure on me? even my PE tachers are givin me the pressures "work hard for your NAPFA..." argh...

i just had a revelation today, i realised that i will be sitting for A levels in about 12 months... wow, i still do not understand chem, phy and maths. 2 H2s... one H1...how am i going to go on like that? no matter how i study, i seem so demoralised, so angry, so tired... besides, i totally screwed up my chinese oral when i just skipped one paragraph cos i dunno how to read the chinese characters. damn.

i have receieved the letter from SYFC... and guess what, i am selected. i am not happy, neither am i disappointed. i got alot of doubts but hey, i never even thought i could pass the health test. i did, and now, i am in the private pilot's licence course. i really do not know what to expect, but well, thats means more late nights, more mugging.

this week, i heard LQ really say words that i did not think will come out of his mouth, but it eventually did, it was words of doubt, and a little self denial. he was really doubtful of 1. GP, and 2. being a pilot. i could really sense the fear that he carries, but as soon as he says it, he was back to himself again. MAN sia...

anyway... lifes back to how it should be like, but i am still very distracted. i do not really feel the confidence i need to carry on.i just feel so lost.

and, i am freaking angry. damn, it seems like 70% of the PW work is done by me, and me alone. and ppl in my team do not trust me. WTH. its as if i am like a stupid fool moving around... argh!
am i so difficult to trust? damn. how i wish i was back in SAS, where i could simply give commands to peopel and they will follow, request from my fellow PART mates, and they will willingly help me. ARGH!

i need slp.

Read My Mind

on the corner of main street
just tryin' to keep it in line
you say you wanna move on and
you say I'm falling behind
can you read my mind?can you read my mind?
make me her cheer up when-ever
I never really gave up on
breakin' out of this two-star town
I got the green light
I got a little fight
I'm gonna turn this thing around
can you read my mind?can you read my mind?
The good old days
the honest man
the restless heart
the promised land
a subtle kiss
that no one sees
a broken wrist
and big trapeze
so oh I don't mind
if you don't mind'cause I don't shine
if you don't shine
before you go
can you read my mind?
Its funny how you just break down
waitin' on some sign
I pull up to the front of your drive
waywith magic soakin' my spine
can you read my mind?can you read my mind?
The teenage queen
the loaded gun
the drop dead dream
the chosen one
a southern drawla world unseen
a city wall
and a trampoline
So oh I don't mind
if you don't mind'cause I don't shine
if you don't shinebefore you jump
tell me what you find
when you read my mind
Slippin in my faith
until I fall
he never returned that call
woman, open the door
don't let it sting
I wanna breathe that fire again
She saidI don't mind
if you don't mind'cause I don't shine
if you don't shine
put your back on me put your back on me
put your back on me(ooooooohhhh)
The stars are blazing
like rebel diamonds
cut out of the sun
when you read my mind

i doubt u realised, but i have been there for a very very very long time, do you even know i am there?