well, my sister is now 8 years old... lol, actually 8 years old 3 days ago... lol.
i can still remeber when i was 10, when i first saw her, lol, i could not believe my eyes... although i already had a younger brother, i found my little sister quite amusing... LOL, she is indeed still cute as before...



lol, she came back from my aunt's home yesterday at about 10, lol, after she bathed, i dryed her hair with a hair dryer, guess what, i spend 30 mins just to dry her hair for her, lol. i can still remeber in the past, her hair was so short, lol, so fast, time flies, now she 8 and i am feeling old...LOL.

i brought her to NAFA today for her art lesson, its been a long time since i last spoke to her, waited for her for 1 and a half hours...

watched a taiwan talk show yesterday, they were talking about one couple's journey of giving birth to a new born. it is indeed a very happy thing to bring a new life to the world, especially so if it is with someone you love. although its such a happy process, i still find it very disturbing especially so the methods of bringing the baby to the world. there are 2 ways, operation or natural. well, the natural way is much painful, and the "thing" will be so damaged that it might tear in the future; again. the operation on the other hand, will leave a scar, and the process is very very bloodly.



this is how it goes...(do not read if you faint easily...)

a cut is made on the lower part of the stomach, a kind of wrench, yes WRENCH is used to hold the "cut" and to leave it open, while the doctor trys to pull the baby out... after which, the nurses will clean up the womb, with funny equipments and the sound goes like this..."swoosh, swoosh" then the "wrench" is taken away, and the stomach is sewed back again...

if its the natural way... the "thing" will tear, there will be a whole load of blood, the "thing" will "disfigure" and it will be whole different "thing"... also, a kind of wrench is used to whole the "thing" open, and allow the baby to be pushed out.

OUCH yea? wonder why my mother have gone through so much pain just to bring me to the world... imagine all the pain your wife have to go through, i am really thinking twice if i want to have a baby now... i really do not want my wife to go through so much pain...

which reminds me of what i have learnt in SAS... i remember during chapel period, the pastor show us the remains of a baby after an abortion... SHIT, if you have seen it, and the tools (yes the doctor calls it tools) used... you will feel like crap... my legs went jelly and weak, i wanted to vomit... there one picture, a baby foetus of i think a month, you could see the eyes and limbs... but its all blood... damn...

there is always 2 ways to look at a situation...some see giving birth as a gift, something special, while others just take it so lightly... in any other way, there is a whole load of blood involved...

well, i believe, a whole load of sacrifice is made by the woman at first... then later the men will suffer... while your wife rests, you have to look after the baby, day and night...lol, but i believe its the sastisfaction and the unspeakble happiness that comes along with a baby i guess...

do i want to have a baby? dunno... LOL





saw about 5 F-16s flew over my house today, could hear them when i stepped home from school.




well, i think i am finally getting used to JC life now, had a total of 3 hours of lessons today, it felt like it took only an hour.

something expected happened today... i am not going into the detail, but i am very afraid of this feeling... i think i am thinking too much...

well...



sometimes i do feel as if that i am not living my life to the fullest, as i look around this world, seems as though i am like in a void against the world, seems like people are doing things that they love, and i am here like in the middle of nowhere, perhaps this will end soon...

sometimes... there i bound to be things that we will miss, or take for granted, then we will live to cherish it, perhaps this is how life works, so that we will cherish all the time we have as a person on earth... regrets are like the passing wind, it will come no matter what... lets hope that i will be able to take all the opportunity that comes in my life...

i am blessed... should not complain to much... i have everything... i should count my blessings...

i am very confused now, i feel really uneasy, i just want to sleep... i really dunno how i myself feel now...

RSAF still more important...

well, my sister is now 8 years old... lol, actually 8 years old 3 days ago... lol.
i can still remeber when i was 10, when i first saw her, lol, i could not believe my eyes... although i already had a younger brother, i found my little sister quite amusing... LOL, she is indeed still cute as before...



lol, she came back from my aunt's home yesterday at about 10, lol, after she bathed, i dryed her hair with a hair dryer, guess what, i spend 30 mins just to dry her hair for her, lol. i can still remeber in the past, her hair was so short, lol, so fast, time flies, now she 8 and i am feeling old...LOL.

i brought her to NAFA today for her art lesson, its been a long time since i last spoke to her, waited for her for 1 and a half hours...

watched a taiwan talk show yesterday, they were talking about one couple's journey of giving birth to a new born. it is indeed a very happy thing to bring a new life to the world, especially so if it is with someone you love. although its such a happy process, i still find it very disturbing especially so the methods of bringing the baby to the world. there are 2 ways, operation or natural. well, the natural way is much painful, and the "thing" will be so damaged that it might tear in the future; again. the operation on the other hand, will leave a scar, and the process is very very bloodly.



this is how it goes...(do not read if you faint easily...)

a cut is made on the lower part of the stomach, a kind of wrench, yes WRENCH is used to hold the "cut" and to leave it open, while the doctor trys to pull the baby out... after which, the nurses will clean up the womb, with funny equipments and the sound goes like this..."swoosh, swoosh" then the "wrench" is taken away, and the stomach is sewed back again...

if its the natural way... the "thing" will tear, there will be a whole load of blood, the "thing" will "disfigure" and it will be whole different "thing"... also, a kind of wrench is used to whole the "thing" open, and allow the baby to be pushed out.

OUCH yea? wonder why my mother have gone through so much pain just to bring me to the world... imagine all the pain your wife have to go through, i am really thinking twice if i want to have a baby now... i really do not want my wife to go through so much pain...

which reminds me of what i have learnt in SAS... i remember during chapel period, the pastor show us the remains of a baby after an abortion... SHIT, if you have seen it, and the tools (yes the doctor calls it tools) used... you will feel like crap... my legs went jelly and weak, i wanted to vomit... there one picture, a baby foetus of i think a month, you could see the eyes and limbs... but its all blood... damn...

there is always 2 ways to look at a situation...some see giving birth as a gift, something special, while others just take it so lightly... in any other way, there is a whole load of blood involved...

well, i believe, a whole load of sacrifice is made by the woman at first... then later the men will suffer... while your wife rests, you have to look after the baby, day and night...lol, but i believe its the sastisfaction and the unspeakble happiness that comes along with a baby i guess...

do i want to have a baby? dunno... LOL





saw about 5 F-16s flew over my house today, could hear them when i stepped home from school.




well, i think i am finally getting used to JC life now, had a total of 3 hours of lessons today, it felt like it took only an hour.

something expected happened today... i am not going into the detail, but i am very afraid of this feeling... i think i am thinking too much...

well...



sometimes i do feel as if that i am not living my life to the fullest, as i look around this world, seems as though i am like in a void against the world, seems like people are doing things that they love, and i am here like in the middle of nowhere, perhaps this will end soon...

sometimes... there i bound to be things that we will miss, or take for granted, then we will live to cherish it, perhaps this is how life works, so that we will cherish all the time we have as a person on earth... regrets are like the passing wind, it will come no matter what... lets hope that i will be able to take all the opportunity that comes in my life...

i am blessed... should not complain to much... i have everything... i should count my blessings...

i am very confused now, i feel really uneasy, i just want to sleep... i really dunno how i myself feel now...

RSAF still more important...