well... made a fool out of myself in school today due to 2 things... firstly, was answering the wrong answer in econs class, and chem...damn... i feel damn screwed for common test... secondly... was cca recruitment today... went totally mad, used the external flash to "flash" people and myself... a total of 87 people signed up for photography today... wonder if they are all going to stay... (there are freaking mobs of girls signing up... must be due to me... LOL!)

school's like always... damn screwed... i am taking my A levels this year... LOL... well, no use whining, must put to action... i won't be able to go back to st.Andrews tomorrow for NCC reunion, got so much to do... so little time... 2 more day till singapore airshow... i am damn excited...

studied in school today, did complex numbers... damn integers, freaking stupid... well, its maths... how interesting can it be? ok, some might argue that you need to be gd at maths to be able to make calculations and read instruments in a fighter jet... BUT, comeon! you do not need to have a GC and pieces of paper to tell you the distance, height, or whatever... damn...

is it me? or do i still miss everything in SA? was talking to alvin today... damn, we really miss our secondary school, everything is so different here, back there, we do not seem to be bored... if we were, there we things to do... cannot remember being so hardworking in my bloody life (as if i am hardworking... rushing to finish my work). well... yi bing is really a super nice guy, wonder why the girl seems to be running away from him... HA (sorry to betray you bro... leaked your secret). perhaps we are both on the same boat... no luck... perhaps its how we are that scares people off... we tend to be hyper and crazy... and sometimes forget of self respect... but hey... who cares about what you think... i am having fun... lol... well... perhaps if i was a little more cautious about myself, i would have more friends in school... heck, i was like that back in SAS... people remember me for that... well... different environment, different people...

am i thinking too much? (pls tell me), i just feel that some people in class have really changed - perhaps i am like what my mom always say, i am a person whom is oblivious to anything that's going on around me - why do i say so? well... i do not want to go into the details, but i just hope and pray for a FUCKING miracle to happen, if people could only be a little more open, more concerned, more thankful, more caring, more loving to each other... fuck, don't you want to see your classmates going to the uni together... FUCK, can you guys be fucking open and share your fucking answers? fuck, your right answers will not cause you to lose out, fuck, help others in class, fuck, say thank you, fuck, work together? fuck... can somebody fucking open your fucking eyes to see that we need to fucking help each other? damn... every man for himself... fucking selfish... fuck

i really wonder why the fuck am i being a fucking class leader... when i do something a little extra, just feel that people fucking think i am trying to be extra, fuck, you think i wanna do all this? fuck... all i wanna do is just share... hopefully the class might change... fuck... just wished that we could all just help each other... well, welcome to the fucking world Kenneth, nobody's gonna watch your fucking back...

at least i still know there are people out there whom i can trust...

fuck... why can't we be like how guys in SAS are... fuck...

ok... thats a lot of "fuck" ... i am just really pissed... well... why should i worry so much?

maybe its cos i myself wanna see everyone is class going to the uni... damn, after all, we are classmates at least... just cannot understand why people are just so selfish...

then again... i maybe wrong...


on the bus today, saw 2 groups of people today...

group 1
saw a pregnant mother with her cute little daughter (abt 2 years old). they were on the bus, the little girl sleeping on the seat, while her mom was standing there... she had a lot of stuff to carry... but even though a seat was offered to her, she refuses to sit... well, she does so to prevent her daughter from falling off the seat...(the girl is sleeping... remember?)

group 2
a couple, one guy one girl (duh... well...) the guy was playing his PSP... (damn his like 20++?) while his gf is sitting next to him, obviously bored when her bf's attention is on his PSP... there was no dialogue, nothing was even said for the whole bus trip...

well, i must say, the mother was a really great woman... i take my hats off her, in my point of view, women like her are kinda extinct on singapore today. a women whom is so loving of her child, despite having difficulties... her love for her daughter made her stand there to make sure that nothing happens to her daughter... (she was smiling all the way...). i dun remember seeing my aunt, or any mothers today (rarely) taking so much pride in being a mother... times have changed... i know i maybe stereotyping... but seems like for a conservative person like me, i guess we should not expect so much from women nowadays... in terms of wanting to be a mother...

again, i maybe wrong

but, from what i have saw, it really strikes me, am i going to let my life lead a life like this? allowing my wife, (if she pregnant) to take a bus with my daughter? no way... (no i am not saying i will pamper my child or wife so much)but hey, she pregnant, its like such a difficult thing already, damn, i just cannot stand it when i see pregnant women standing up, it just feel so... HEAVY... damn... IF i wanna get married, i better make sure i can freaking support a family first... perhaps this could be an "incentive" for me to work hard...


group 2
damn, is your bloody PSP more important than your girlfriend? what a guy aye? damn, your PSP can wait, but not your gf... goodness... shes a person with feelings after all dude, can you like just talk to her? damn, might as well make your PSP your gf... goodness... whats happening to the world today? i mean, you court a girl for the obvious reason that you are in love with her right? and you wanna marry her and be with her for the rest of your life right? damn, i guess definition of love is different for different people... i will not wanna be like that guy... damn... if i can, i would want to be able to entertain my gf as much as possible(of course not being an idiot and bug her every time...) but hey, at least talk...

perhaps they are having an argument? well, they dun look as if they are... if so... dude, being a guy, can you try to solve the problem?

then again, some people might say, "damn, kenneth, you are pretty ego ar?"

comeon, guys have ego so that they can be the better person for their gal right? ego can drive a guy to work hard for a six pack, maybe even study harder... can girls just imagine a world with guys without egos? the guy population would be gay... fucking gay... well, if i can... i might bring my gal to see the stars, maybe see the planes at the beach flying over in changi? (comeon... planes is a subset of a guy whom wanna be a fighter pilot), maybe spend sometime with her up on mount faber to see the night light? well... i dunno... maybe cook some food for her? maybe try, TRY to sing a song for her? well... the list goes on... i need to think of more stuff... i think my mom is right... i am damn boring...

ok... i think now... she's kinda hot... not in her figure... but her character, the way she is... HOT... ha... well... i will never have a chance...



She rolls the window down
And she
Talks over the sound
Of the cars that pass us by
And I dont know why
But shes changed my mind

Chorus:
Would you look at her
She looks at me
Shes got me thinking about her constantly
But she dont know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if shes figured out
Im crazy for this girl

She was the one to hold me
The night
The sky fell down
And what was I thinking when
The world didnt end
Why didnt I know what I know now


Right now
Face to face
All my fears
Pushed aside
And right now
Im ready to spend the rest of my life
With you

well... made a fool out of myself in school today due to 2 things... firstly, was answering the wrong answer in econs class, and chem...damn... i feel damn screwed for common test... secondly... was cca recruitment today... went totally mad, used the external flash to "flash" people and myself... a total of 87 people signed up for photography today... wonder if they are all going to stay... (there are freaking mobs of girls signing up... must be due to me... LOL!)

school's like always... damn screwed... i am taking my A levels this year... LOL... well, no use whining, must put to action... i won't be able to go back to st.Andrews tomorrow for NCC reunion, got so much to do... so little time... 2 more day till singapore airshow... i am damn excited...

studied in school today, did complex numbers... damn integers, freaking stupid... well, its maths... how interesting can it be? ok, some might argue that you need to be gd at maths to be able to make calculations and read instruments in a fighter jet... BUT, comeon! you do not need to have a GC and pieces of paper to tell you the distance, height, or whatever... damn...

is it me? or do i still miss everything in SA? was talking to alvin today... damn, we really miss our secondary school, everything is so different here, back there, we do not seem to be bored... if we were, there we things to do... cannot remember being so hardworking in my bloody life (as if i am hardworking... rushing to finish my work). well... yi bing is really a super nice guy, wonder why the girl seems to be running away from him... HA (sorry to betray you bro... leaked your secret). perhaps we are both on the same boat... no luck... perhaps its how we are that scares people off... we tend to be hyper and crazy... and sometimes forget of self respect... but hey... who cares about what you think... i am having fun... lol... well... perhaps if i was a little more cautious about myself, i would have more friends in school... heck, i was like that back in SAS... people remember me for that... well... different environment, different people...

am i thinking too much? (pls tell me), i just feel that some people in class have really changed - perhaps i am like what my mom always say, i am a person whom is oblivious to anything that's going on around me - why do i say so? well... i do not want to go into the details, but i just hope and pray for a FUCKING miracle to happen, if people could only be a little more open, more concerned, more thankful, more caring, more loving to each other... fuck, don't you want to see your classmates going to the uni together... FUCK, can you guys be fucking open and share your fucking answers? fuck, your right answers will not cause you to lose out, fuck, help others in class, fuck, say thank you, fuck, work together? fuck... can somebody fucking open your fucking eyes to see that we need to fucking help each other? damn... every man for himself... fucking selfish... fuck

i really wonder why the fuck am i being a fucking class leader... when i do something a little extra, just feel that people fucking think i am trying to be extra, fuck, you think i wanna do all this? fuck... all i wanna do is just share... hopefully the class might change... fuck... just wished that we could all just help each other... well, welcome to the fucking world Kenneth, nobody's gonna watch your fucking back...

at least i still know there are people out there whom i can trust...

fuck... why can't we be like how guys in SAS are... fuck...

ok... thats a lot of "fuck" ... i am just really pissed... well... why should i worry so much?

maybe its cos i myself wanna see everyone is class going to the uni... damn, after all, we are classmates at least... just cannot understand why people are just so selfish...

then again... i maybe wrong...


on the bus today, saw 2 groups of people today...

group 1
saw a pregnant mother with her cute little daughter (abt 2 years old). they were on the bus, the little girl sleeping on the seat, while her mom was standing there... she had a lot of stuff to carry... but even though a seat was offered to her, she refuses to sit... well, she does so to prevent her daughter from falling off the seat...(the girl is sleeping... remember?)

group 2
a couple, one guy one girl (duh... well...) the guy was playing his PSP... (damn his like 20++?) while his gf is sitting next to him, obviously bored when her bf's attention is on his PSP... there was no dialogue, nothing was even said for the whole bus trip...

well, i must say, the mother was a really great woman... i take my hats off her, in my point of view, women like her are kinda extinct on singapore today. a women whom is so loving of her child, despite having difficulties... her love for her daughter made her stand there to make sure that nothing happens to her daughter... (she was smiling all the way...). i dun remember seeing my aunt, or any mothers today (rarely) taking so much pride in being a mother... times have changed... i know i maybe stereotyping... but seems like for a conservative person like me, i guess we should not expect so much from women nowadays... in terms of wanting to be a mother...

again, i maybe wrong

but, from what i have saw, it really strikes me, am i going to let my life lead a life like this? allowing my wife, (if she pregnant) to take a bus with my daughter? no way... (no i am not saying i will pamper my child or wife so much)but hey, she pregnant, its like such a difficult thing already, damn, i just cannot stand it when i see pregnant women standing up, it just feel so... HEAVY... damn... IF i wanna get married, i better make sure i can freaking support a family first... perhaps this could be an "incentive" for me to work hard...


group 2
damn, is your bloody PSP more important than your girlfriend? what a guy aye? damn, your PSP can wait, but not your gf... goodness... shes a person with feelings after all dude, can you like just talk to her? damn, might as well make your PSP your gf... goodness... whats happening to the world today? i mean, you court a girl for the obvious reason that you are in love with her right? and you wanna marry her and be with her for the rest of your life right? damn, i guess definition of love is different for different people... i will not wanna be like that guy... damn... if i can, i would want to be able to entertain my gf as much as possible(of course not being an idiot and bug her every time...) but hey, at least talk...

perhaps they are having an argument? well, they dun look as if they are... if so... dude, being a guy, can you try to solve the problem?

then again, some people might say, "damn, kenneth, you are pretty ego ar?"

comeon, guys have ego so that they can be the better person for their gal right? ego can drive a guy to work hard for a six pack, maybe even study harder... can girls just imagine a world with guys without egos? the guy population would be gay... fucking gay... well, if i can... i might bring my gal to see the stars, maybe see the planes at the beach flying over in changi? (comeon... planes is a subset of a guy whom wanna be a fighter pilot), maybe spend sometime with her up on mount faber to see the night light? well... i dunno... maybe cook some food for her? maybe try, TRY to sing a song for her? well... the list goes on... i need to think of more stuff... i think my mom is right... i am damn boring...

ok... i think now... she's kinda hot... not in her figure... but her character, the way she is... HOT... ha... well... i will never have a chance...



She rolls the window down
And she
Talks over the sound
Of the cars that pass us by
And I dont know why
But shes changed my mind

Chorus:
Would you look at her
She looks at me
Shes got me thinking about her constantly
But she dont know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if shes figured out
Im crazy for this girl

She was the one to hold me
The night
The sky fell down
And what was I thinking when
The world didnt end
Why didnt I know what I know now


Right now
Face to face
All my fears
Pushed aside
And right now
Im ready to spend the rest of my life
With you