well, finally all the H2 subjects are over... well, i cannot say that the paper were too difficult, some questions were pretty some were just damn hard, but overall, i guess i can just pass... nothing fancy, just plain passes... well, no excuses, i did not spent sufficient time to do my revision... well, no use whining about it now since its all over, learn from my mistakes, and remember to study smart the next time...


went out to celebrate Cheong Wei's belated birthday... lol, went to watch "meet the Spartans" well, i must say its a show totally screwed, but it was kinda funny at times... well, like everyone in the theatre, i guess we are not into the American culture, so there were some stuffs that we do not really understand, well... overall, its kinda porno, dun wanna talk about it... i had a really great time, i just like to spent time with my friends, i dunno why, its just feel right... thank God i got to know this few dudes from my class, super cool dudes, crazy characters, cold jokes, damn, nothing else can substitute such a company...


on the way to orchard, saw this couple walking... well, they look very normal, but there's sth different about them, they are mute, they cannot speak, thus, they use sign languages to communicate with each other... well, i do feel kinda sad for them... i mean, we are meant to speak for a reason right? but hey, on the other hand, its the actions that count... seeing them having such a nice time, i really cannot help to wonder that theres more to this bloody world then we all think. at least there are things that we can enjoy, we can do, we can indulge and even to be with people that matters to you, theres nothing better than this...


walking along orchard road today, i see many young people, some were younger than me, soem were a little older, shopping is the word to go... there were so many young people buying things, going for movies, etc... seems like life in Singapore sure is one thats considered modern... comparing to the Philippines, things are really different, the shopping area, or should i say the orchard road in Cebu Philippines is like kovan shopping centre... only a little larger, and guess what, theres more window shopping than actual physical shopping. i remember one night, while looking at the stars and the night by the sea, was walking back after supper when i saw a couple of Filipino boys playing with firecracker... there were poor... (but their mom's barbeque stuff sure rocks...) well, without a word, they offered me one of their small small fire crackers... well, of course i did not take the cracker but i really felt that even though they had so little, they were willing to share... and you do not see such a thing happening in singapore... sometimes, i wish that all people can just see what i have saw, and perhaps learn to appreciate life a little more... (well, we all take life for granted, especially in singapore)


looking around me now, on my table, the laptop i am using now... honestly, almost everything is bought by my parents, even if those things were bought by me, it was from the money from them... then again, i wonder, where does all the money come from when those young people spend...? well from their parents aye? i have been thinking... if i were to use the money that is supposed to be for my FROM my parents, and if i were to use it in terms of courting a girl, WON'T that indirectly count as my parents being the one courting that girl? i dunno, this thought just happen to cross my mind...

perhaps its will be more meaningful if the money is earned by me... and me myself alone...


well...


you know... somethings in life, is either you say it or you don't, and there is always the issue of regretting and being able to live on with it. its like theres this yearning, but theres this fear thats things might not go the way you want it to be, and theres this problem of not having the confidence, and yet theres this hope that it might be possible, and then theres this doubt, and theres this "ah never mind" but then comes along "why not?", then its just goes on and on, and you cannot stop thinking about it, it just stays on your head...


perhaps i should follow what i was taught in SAS, singleness is a gift... just take a look a my friend, girlfriend wanna breakup with him, he cannot take it...

i am not saying anything, its just how weird this thing is, theres the want for it, yet together, there might be the want for the end of it, and its not like a change of batteries, it actually have the ability to involve all your feelings and senses... and its not a thing to be played with, perhaps my teachers were right, theres this thing about relationships that is just so... surreal...


well...


i like her... but i just know that i do not suit her at all...

well, finally all the H2 subjects are over... well, i cannot say that the paper were too difficult, some questions were pretty some were just damn hard, but overall, i guess i can just pass... nothing fancy, just plain passes... well, no excuses, i did not spent sufficient time to do my revision... well, no use whining about it now since its all over, learn from my mistakes, and remember to study smart the next time...


went out to celebrate Cheong Wei's belated birthday... lol, went to watch "meet the Spartans" well, i must say its a show totally screwed, but it was kinda funny at times... well, like everyone in the theatre, i guess we are not into the American culture, so there were some stuffs that we do not really understand, well... overall, its kinda porno, dun wanna talk about it... i had a really great time, i just like to spent time with my friends, i dunno why, its just feel right... thank God i got to know this few dudes from my class, super cool dudes, crazy characters, cold jokes, damn, nothing else can substitute such a company...


on the way to orchard, saw this couple walking... well, they look very normal, but there's sth different about them, they are mute, they cannot speak, thus, they use sign languages to communicate with each other... well, i do feel kinda sad for them... i mean, we are meant to speak for a reason right? but hey, on the other hand, its the actions that count... seeing them having such a nice time, i really cannot help to wonder that theres more to this bloody world then we all think. at least there are things that we can enjoy, we can do, we can indulge and even to be with people that matters to you, theres nothing better than this...


walking along orchard road today, i see many young people, some were younger than me, soem were a little older, shopping is the word to go... there were so many young people buying things, going for movies, etc... seems like life in Singapore sure is one thats considered modern... comparing to the Philippines, things are really different, the shopping area, or should i say the orchard road in Cebu Philippines is like kovan shopping centre... only a little larger, and guess what, theres more window shopping than actual physical shopping. i remember one night, while looking at the stars and the night by the sea, was walking back after supper when i saw a couple of Filipino boys playing with firecracker... there were poor... (but their mom's barbeque stuff sure rocks...) well, without a word, they offered me one of their small small fire crackers... well, of course i did not take the cracker but i really felt that even though they had so little, they were willing to share... and you do not see such a thing happening in singapore... sometimes, i wish that all people can just see what i have saw, and perhaps learn to appreciate life a little more... (well, we all take life for granted, especially in singapore)


looking around me now, on my table, the laptop i am using now... honestly, almost everything is bought by my parents, even if those things were bought by me, it was from the money from them... then again, i wonder, where does all the money come from when those young people spend...? well from their parents aye? i have been thinking... if i were to use the money that is supposed to be for my FROM my parents, and if i were to use it in terms of courting a girl, WON'T that indirectly count as my parents being the one courting that girl? i dunno, this thought just happen to cross my mind...

perhaps its will be more meaningful if the money is earned by me... and me myself alone...


well...


you know... somethings in life, is either you say it or you don't, and there is always the issue of regretting and being able to live on with it. its like theres this yearning, but theres this fear thats things might not go the way you want it to be, and theres this problem of not having the confidence, and yet theres this hope that it might be possible, and then theres this doubt, and theres this "ah never mind" but then comes along "why not?", then its just goes on and on, and you cannot stop thinking about it, it just stays on your head...


perhaps i should follow what i was taught in SAS, singleness is a gift... just take a look a my friend, girlfriend wanna breakup with him, he cannot take it...

i am not saying anything, its just how weird this thing is, theres the want for it, yet together, there might be the want for the end of it, and its not like a change of batteries, it actually have the ability to involve all your feelings and senses... and its not a thing to be played with, perhaps my teachers were right, theres this thing about relationships that is just so... surreal...


well...


i like her... but i just know that i do not suit her at all...