well, the past week have been a real shitty one... had almost a week of tests... i think i have done pretty badly for some of the tests... oh well, i have already put in the effort, well, we will see from the results, no point crying over spilled milk... oh well... the week was a rather standard and routine one nothing much happened...


my parents are really giving me a hard time now... i cannot watch tv, i cannot use my hp, i cannot use the computer, i can't even take a nap... oh well... i got no comments about it...

ok, i am still very very emo about things now, i just cannot control the way i feel now, i lost control of my emotions already, it has taken over me... is this infatuation? well, its been about 1 year, i doubt its infatuation already, well, i really wonder why am i feeling that way? there is just sth about her, even though i try to forget her, my body is just going against my mind, i cannot stand it, its affecting me so much... i really cannot stand it anymore... i hate it, then again, i am really attracted to her...


contradiction aye? on one side i want to forget about her, then again, i am attracted to her...


well, this year is an important year for all of us, i do not want to screw up this year and i just want to do well, then again, my emotions are not helping at all. i ask myself, which is more important, RSAF, or her, then again, if i don't do well for my A levels, i can't have both, might as well push on to do well for As... do also die, don't do also die, might as well go out with the best... then again, i feel so inferior, besides, i am the only guy in class with such a wierd appearence, no matter how hard i try, i just cannot beat those ugly fats... damn, plus these pimples... the doc says it will go away when i reach 18, now... he says i gotta wait till 21... wtf... everything i do seems to go against me... why will she even notice me?


on the other hand, i know it sounds dirty, sounds very disgusting, but, SHE IS DAMN HOT! i am gonna just say it i do not care what you guys are gonna say, but yea, she's cool too... too cool, so much so, i just go speechless when i see her, my heart starts to beat, and i am just... lost...


"Rushes"

She’s got a blind smile and a soft touch
A cute little dimple when she laughs too much
They say you fall hard when you meet her
Such is her allure
She’s got a quick wit and a fast tongue
But she doesn’t seem to know that she’s the one
They say she cheats charm when she whispers
She’s devilishly pure

You’d see if you knew her
She doesn’t know
But its time I told her so

When I see your blushes
From a compliment of mine it touches
Something inside I’m getting rushes
The adrenaline rushes
And I'm fascinated
That you really don’t know how to take it
When I look at you that way you feel naked
And I’m so into you
I’m getting rushes

She’s about five nine
Got a sexy stride
With long tanned legs that she shouldn’t hide
With a fine air of innocence
Nonchalance in every move
She’s a sweet sensation tease temptation
She looks good enough to eat
She’s a fallen angel with a devilish streak
And so they say
Like with like will finally meet

You’d see if you knew her
She doesn’t know
But its time I told her so

When I see your blushes
From a compliment of mine it touches
Something inside I’m getting rushes
The adrenaline rushes
And I'm fascinated
That you really don’t know how to take it
When I look at you that way you feel naked
And I’m so into you
I’m getting rushes

WhenI like it I want more
And I like it and I want more
And I like it and I want more
Never felt it like this before

It’s more than adrenaline rushes
It’s the touch and the smell of skin rushes
Some call it love at first sight
I call it butterflies

When I see your blushes
From a compliment of mine it touches
Something inside I’m getting rushes
The adrenaline rushes
And I'm fascinated
That you really don’t know how to take it
When I look at you that way you feel naked
And I’m so into you
I’m getting rushes


erm, please mind the "naked" i do not want to see her naked... please... and it says... "feels naked"... i dunno why, but yea, the song describes her... to a very large extend...


yes, she is really affecting me... or then again, am i just living in my own world, feeling things that i should not, am i affecting myself?


well... i still want to loose those fats, and loose weight, and continue to run till i get the 100km shirt...

well... honestly... i just feel so useless, like a coward, an idiot, i am afterall, a guy, and i dare not let her know how i feel... then again, i do not want to ruin this friendship (if we even have one), i am really afraid that she might overeact... then again, am i overreacting?


this is damn irritating and its definately confusing me...


i just realised how important it is to have friends, was running in school yesterday, was with lennon until he gave up then i went to run alone... in the end, i could not find him at all... so... i ended up all alone... sat at the gallery... was really dumbfolded... like there is no aim in doing anything at all... i just stonned... i guess i am really lucky to have friends in school... oh well...









i am thinking about her now...


shit...


finally, someone in school appreciates RUGBY!!! oh yea, the principle was talking during a rah rah session, and he even mentioned the all blacks plus johnny wilkinson!!! whoooooooooooooooooooooo! but he had a mistake, the kick that he shown as a video was a penalty awarded to england, they won when he did a drop kick, which is the ball, touches the ground first before it is being kicked over the "goal"...







that was how they won... oh well... i tried to kick some conversions in school... got the height, the length, but not the accuracy... looked like a fool i guess... oh well, gotta try...


well, i crossed her mind at least... and i am contented about it... ha... better than nothing...

well... off to more studying, and mugging, i am looking forward to saturday... and i really hope she will be there...

well, the past week have been a real shitty one... had almost a week of tests... i think i have done pretty badly for some of the tests... oh well, i have already put in the effort, well, we will see from the results, no point crying over spilled milk... oh well... the week was a rather standard and routine one nothing much happened...


my parents are really giving me a hard time now... i cannot watch tv, i cannot use my hp, i cannot use the computer, i can't even take a nap... oh well... i got no comments about it...

ok, i am still very very emo about things now, i just cannot control the way i feel now, i lost control of my emotions already, it has taken over me... is this infatuation? well, its been about 1 year, i doubt its infatuation already, well, i really wonder why am i feeling that way? there is just sth about her, even though i try to forget her, my body is just going against my mind, i cannot stand it, its affecting me so much... i really cannot stand it anymore... i hate it, then again, i am really attracted to her...


contradiction aye? on one side i want to forget about her, then again, i am attracted to her...


well, this year is an important year for all of us, i do not want to screw up this year and i just want to do well, then again, my emotions are not helping at all. i ask myself, which is more important, RSAF, or her, then again, if i don't do well for my A levels, i can't have both, might as well push on to do well for As... do also die, don't do also die, might as well go out with the best... then again, i feel so inferior, besides, i am the only guy in class with such a wierd appearence, no matter how hard i try, i just cannot beat those ugly fats... damn, plus these pimples... the doc says it will go away when i reach 18, now... he says i gotta wait till 21... wtf... everything i do seems to go against me... why will she even notice me?


on the other hand, i know it sounds dirty, sounds very disgusting, but, SHE IS DAMN HOT! i am gonna just say it i do not care what you guys are gonna say, but yea, she's cool too... too cool, so much so, i just go speechless when i see her, my heart starts to beat, and i am just... lost...


"Rushes"

She’s got a blind smile and a soft touch
A cute little dimple when she laughs too much
They say you fall hard when you meet her
Such is her allure
She’s got a quick wit and a fast tongue
But she doesn’t seem to know that she’s the one
They say she cheats charm when she whispers
She’s devilishly pure

You’d see if you knew her
She doesn’t know
But its time I told her so

When I see your blushes
From a compliment of mine it touches
Something inside I’m getting rushes
The adrenaline rushes
And I'm fascinated
That you really don’t know how to take it
When I look at you that way you feel naked
And I’m so into you
I’m getting rushes

She’s about five nine
Got a sexy stride
With long tanned legs that she shouldn’t hide
With a fine air of innocence
Nonchalance in every move
She’s a sweet sensation tease temptation
She looks good enough to eat
She’s a fallen angel with a devilish streak
And so they say
Like with like will finally meet

You’d see if you knew her
She doesn’t know
But its time I told her so

When I see your blushes
From a compliment of mine it touches
Something inside I’m getting rushes
The adrenaline rushes
And I'm fascinated
That you really don’t know how to take it
When I look at you that way you feel naked
And I’m so into you
I’m getting rushes

WhenI like it I want more
And I like it and I want more
And I like it and I want more
Never felt it like this before

It’s more than adrenaline rushes
It’s the touch and the smell of skin rushes
Some call it love at first sight
I call it butterflies

When I see your blushes
From a compliment of mine it touches
Something inside I’m getting rushes
The adrenaline rushes
And I'm fascinated
That you really don’t know how to take it
When I look at you that way you feel naked
And I’m so into you
I’m getting rushes


erm, please mind the "naked" i do not want to see her naked... please... and it says... "feels naked"... i dunno why, but yea, the song describes her... to a very large extend...


yes, she is really affecting me... or then again, am i just living in my own world, feeling things that i should not, am i affecting myself?


well... i still want to loose those fats, and loose weight, and continue to run till i get the 100km shirt...

well... honestly... i just feel so useless, like a coward, an idiot, i am afterall, a guy, and i dare not let her know how i feel... then again, i do not want to ruin this friendship (if we even have one), i am really afraid that she might overeact... then again, am i overreacting?


this is damn irritating and its definately confusing me...


i just realised how important it is to have friends, was running in school yesterday, was with lennon until he gave up then i went to run alone... in the end, i could not find him at all... so... i ended up all alone... sat at the gallery... was really dumbfolded... like there is no aim in doing anything at all... i just stonned... i guess i am really lucky to have friends in school... oh well...









i am thinking about her now...


shit...


finally, someone in school appreciates RUGBY!!! oh yea, the principle was talking during a rah rah session, and he even mentioned the all blacks plus johnny wilkinson!!! whoooooooooooooooooooooo! but he had a mistake, the kick that he shown as a video was a penalty awarded to england, they won when he did a drop kick, which is the ball, touches the ground first before it is being kicked over the "goal"...







that was how they won... oh well... i tried to kick some conversions in school... got the height, the length, but not the accuracy... looked like a fool i guess... oh well, gotta try...


well, i crossed her mind at least... and i am contented about it... ha... better than nothing...

well... off to more studying, and mugging, i am looking forward to saturday... and i really hope she will be there...