well... feel super stupid... not my day today... feel damn dumb... just when you thought things are going well... it just hits you and stabs you in the back...


sometimes, i really wonder why am i studying... everytime it comes back... FAIL... its either i am damn fucking dumb and stupid... or i am just not meant to study... perhaps they are right... i should go to a poly...


i am such a failure... wasting my parents money for tution, daily allowance... no matter how hard i try... it just hit me like that...


i really wish i could be like some people... born with it... no need to study, but still can produce the results... damn... i am really screwed...


oh well...


sometimes i really wonder how does people see me... do they see me as a slacker? a loser? an asshole? a "for-show-only"?, i doubt it will be sth positive... i just hate being in the position i am in now... people are just so suspicious of who i am... crap... i am human too... can you guys please give me a break...


all i want to do is just be someone whom people will know me as a friend... not as someone whom is a good-for-nothing... crap... all i want is to be a fighter pilot, i can fucking interested in your dislikes and likes, *($(&@, whoever i hang out with does not mean that i agree totally to how he or she is...


ah crap... can theres nothing important during morning assembly... CRAP, i wanna talk to my friend can? asshole... so what if i am a classleader... give me a fucking break... what? you want me to pay attention to the guy with moods singing "i will survive"? ah crap, he is totally screwed up also... fat, stupid, ugly, dumb... ah, you can all go screw yourself for all i care...


in fact, i dun really care what you are going to say... anyone of you... shutup...


i feel super crappy now... you know... the pride...

well... feel super stupid... not my day today... feel damn dumb... just when you thought things are going well... it just hits you and stabs you in the back...


sometimes, i really wonder why am i studying... everytime it comes back... FAIL... its either i am damn fucking dumb and stupid... or i am just not meant to study... perhaps they are right... i should go to a poly...


i am such a failure... wasting my parents money for tution, daily allowance... no matter how hard i try... it just hit me like that...


i really wish i could be like some people... born with it... no need to study, but still can produce the results... damn... i am really screwed...


oh well...


sometimes i really wonder how does people see me... do they see me as a slacker? a loser? an asshole? a "for-show-only"?, i doubt it will be sth positive... i just hate being in the position i am in now... people are just so suspicious of who i am... crap... i am human too... can you guys please give me a break...


all i want to do is just be someone whom people will know me as a friend... not as someone whom is a good-for-nothing... crap... all i want is to be a fighter pilot, i can fucking interested in your dislikes and likes, *($(&@, whoever i hang out with does not mean that i agree totally to how he or she is...


ah crap... can theres nothing important during morning assembly... CRAP, i wanna talk to my friend can? asshole... so what if i am a classleader... give me a fucking break... what? you want me to pay attention to the guy with moods singing "i will survive"? ah crap, he is totally screwed up also... fat, stupid, ugly, dumb... ah, you can all go screw yourself for all i care...


in fact, i dun really care what you are going to say... anyone of you... shutup...


i feel super crappy now... you know... the pride...