stupid stupid, kenneth you are so stupid, you suck, argh... you are a bloody fool... how can you do that? ITS JUST WHAT???!!!! 6 words? wtf, and you just blew it like that... ok, nevermind... then how abt yesterday? CAN'T YOU JUST BE NATURAL? argh... why? WHYWHYWHY? stupid... kenneth... you really suck...



argh... i guess she hates me now.... like totally... hate me... i can feel it... she seriously hates me... who won't? its like doing sth secretly without someone's permission... then again... i did not choose to be like that... i am really sorry, its just came to me like that... i dunno why, but i am just attracted to her... i am really sorry if she feels angry towards me...



then again... we gotta study... its the most important thing now, others things can wait, can it? oh well... who am i to think like this right?



different is a word to vague to desribe her... i believe unique is a better word to describe her... you know, seriously, i really think she is one unique girl... i dunno how to describe, but yea... she is just... unique...



i just feel so dumb this week, i do things so stupidly... like a fool... until now... i still have this barrier when i speak to girls... ok, some girls are better, especially so if they share the same interest or have been working with you in school... while other girls, they are just... wierd... not in the sense like the way they behave, but its just to wierd to talk to a girl just like that... its difficult... its just difficult... especially talking to her... its just... impossible... i feel so stupid after that... its feels like liverpool losing a game they could have easily won... it just sucks...



i tried to forget her... tried to tell myself that she is just impossible for me... i tired to run more, tried to read GP essays instead of listening to my mp3 on the way home... but... its not helping... i just happen to think of her suddenly...



you know, i just feel so dirty... like obsessed with her... it is just wrong... but i just think of her... you know... like... just think of her...



then again, but posting my feelings online like this, for all you people to read, is so disturbing... its like... i am so open about it... its like there is no truth to how i feel...



then again... what can i do? keep it to myself? i just can't find someone to pour out my feelings on how i feel now... in fact, there seems to be no solution to solve this problem i am facing now...



then again, i am not the only one feeling like that... seems like many people, be it boy or girl, different races, be it singaporean or foreginers... all feel like how i do... some took the initiative, some succeed, some failed, some keep it to themselves, some could'nt keep their mouth shut... but all of them seem to be able to live with it, except me... it sucks...



oh well... i am selfish right? just think of myself, and how i feel, everything about myself, and not considering anything... but then, she does not seem to be affected by it... doubt she even knows... oh well... gotta respect what she believes in... studying now is still more important... oh well...



study hard... get into RSAF...


perhaps she already know...

stupid stupid, kenneth you are so stupid, you suck, argh... you are a bloody fool... how can you do that? ITS JUST WHAT???!!!! 6 words? wtf, and you just blew it like that... ok, nevermind... then how abt yesterday? CAN'T YOU JUST BE NATURAL? argh... why? WHYWHYWHY? stupid... kenneth... you really suck...



argh... i guess she hates me now.... like totally... hate me... i can feel it... she seriously hates me... who won't? its like doing sth secretly without someone's permission... then again... i did not choose to be like that... i am really sorry, its just came to me like that... i dunno why, but i am just attracted to her... i am really sorry if she feels angry towards me...



then again... we gotta study... its the most important thing now, others things can wait, can it? oh well... who am i to think like this right?



different is a word to vague to desribe her... i believe unique is a better word to describe her... you know, seriously, i really think she is one unique girl... i dunno how to describe, but yea... she is just... unique...



i just feel so dumb this week, i do things so stupidly... like a fool... until now... i still have this barrier when i speak to girls... ok, some girls are better, especially so if they share the same interest or have been working with you in school... while other girls, they are just... wierd... not in the sense like the way they behave, but its just to wierd to talk to a girl just like that... its difficult... its just difficult... especially talking to her... its just... impossible... i feel so stupid after that... its feels like liverpool losing a game they could have easily won... it just sucks...



i tried to forget her... tried to tell myself that she is just impossible for me... i tired to run more, tried to read GP essays instead of listening to my mp3 on the way home... but... its not helping... i just happen to think of her suddenly...



you know, i just feel so dirty... like obsessed with her... it is just wrong... but i just think of her... you know... like... just think of her...



then again, but posting my feelings online like this, for all you people to read, is so disturbing... its like... i am so open about it... its like there is no truth to how i feel...



then again... what can i do? keep it to myself? i just can't find someone to pour out my feelings on how i feel now... in fact, there seems to be no solution to solve this problem i am facing now...



then again, i am not the only one feeling like that... seems like many people, be it boy or girl, different races, be it singaporean or foreginers... all feel like how i do... some took the initiative, some succeed, some failed, some keep it to themselves, some could'nt keep their mouth shut... but all of them seem to be able to live with it, except me... it sucks...



oh well... i am selfish right? just think of myself, and how i feel, everything about myself, and not considering anything... but then, she does not seem to be affected by it... doubt she even knows... oh well... gotta respect what she believes in... studying now is still more important... oh well...



study hard... get into RSAF...


perhaps she already know...