there are many things that happened since i last blogged...

if looks could kill, i am already dead since last weeks school musical...

and if simplicity is beauty...

Perfection is achieved, not when there is nothing more to add, but when there is nothing left to take away." — Antoine de Saint-Exupery


one word... my breath was taken away...


then again, you might not think the same way as i do... beauty is in the eyes of the beholder...


well... sometimes i wonder, is she the Melissa in the musical... does she know? i do feel like zhi jian... (Melissa and zhi jian are like the main characters in our school muscial) its just impossible... does she feel happy when i talk to her? what am i in her eyes? do i even stand a chance... well... if 1% is alot... i may, MAY have the chance... but... i should not lie to myself... after all... shes just... unreachable...


and i being very selfish to feel like this towards her? am i being normal? is it supposed to be like that? why am i like this? the emotions just keeps lingering in the corner of my mind... am i just crazy? why am i like that? am i sick in the mind? am i just losing it? shit, why do i feel like that towards you?


should i tell you how i feel? allow you to decide how you wanna react... most probably you will just ignore me... forever... can you accept how i feel and carry on with life? i need to know if i have the chance... i am hanging by a thread... all it takes is for you to say sth... no matter what... just say sth... at least i know...


wait...


i have feelings for you... do you have anything for me?


perhaps, i should answer my own question...


are you what they tell me you are? so cold blooded, so emotionless? perhaps thats why you are so attractive...


honestly, i really dunno why i feel like that, but you are just different... perhaps thats why i have feelings for you...


then again... you SHOULD not have any feelings for a person like me... after all... i am just... like that...


you know, i do feel like shit, i just cannot be like those guys whom talks to you... they can just talk to you like nobody's business... but i can't, i am afraid to even talk to you... i am afraid that i might screw up and look stupid in front of you...


please do not think that i am just thinking about you... i am also worried about my studies... i should, to tell you the truth, you are like a mosquito bite... you are for now, a small little problem... but you can affect when my emotions feel so irritated and frustrated... why can't we even just communicate properly... everything is just one liners...



then again, i am a guy, i should initiate all the conversations and stuff... but i am just afraid that you will over react... i know you will... then again, things will get worst... i might not even be your friend...


i cannot forget you, i will be honest... i just cannot do it...


guess i will just have to wait... until the time is right...


for now...


its just like that...


btw, you totally rock...

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went to take photos for the touch rugby girls, i must say, THEY ARE SUPER GOOD... damn, they played really well... ha... they should have won... but, the champion was decided with a coin toss... how lame is that... oh well... i must say, they were just really cool... perhpas thats why girls are just so mysterious and special... they just react differently to how you would expect them to be... another living testimony to just how a guy from a boys school, thought he knows everything about girls... oh well... i called them guys... shit... they were quite pissed i guess... "erm, gals please, not guys"


how dumb kenneth...


of you are a touch rugby girl, and you want the pics, i can pass it to you gals... just inform me... ( if thats the right word to use... ) there are about 84 pics...







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studies are taking the toil on me... i am feeling super tired... i am really fighting a losing battle, i feel like giving up, i cannot go on... i just feel so stupid... so demoralised... oh well... you push me on... i will just do my best, work hard, continue to study, push on, and maybe i can...


but, i want it... i want my dream... and of course, i wanna prove myself... and maybe, impress you...


off with my books...

there are many things that happened since i last blogged...

if looks could kill, i am already dead since last weeks school musical...

and if simplicity is beauty...

Perfection is achieved, not when there is nothing more to add, but when there is nothing left to take away." — Antoine de Saint-Exupery


one word... my breath was taken away...


then again, you might not think the same way as i do... beauty is in the eyes of the beholder...


well... sometimes i wonder, is she the Melissa in the musical... does she know? i do feel like zhi jian... (Melissa and zhi jian are like the main characters in our school muscial) its just impossible... does she feel happy when i talk to her? what am i in her eyes? do i even stand a chance... well... if 1% is alot... i may, MAY have the chance... but... i should not lie to myself... after all... shes just... unreachable...


and i being very selfish to feel like this towards her? am i being normal? is it supposed to be like that? why am i like this? the emotions just keeps lingering in the corner of my mind... am i just crazy? why am i like that? am i sick in the mind? am i just losing it? shit, why do i feel like that towards you?


should i tell you how i feel? allow you to decide how you wanna react... most probably you will just ignore me... forever... can you accept how i feel and carry on with life? i need to know if i have the chance... i am hanging by a thread... all it takes is for you to say sth... no matter what... just say sth... at least i know...


wait...


i have feelings for you... do you have anything for me?


perhaps, i should answer my own question...


are you what they tell me you are? so cold blooded, so emotionless? perhaps thats why you are so attractive...


honestly, i really dunno why i feel like that, but you are just different... perhaps thats why i have feelings for you...


then again... you SHOULD not have any feelings for a person like me... after all... i am just... like that...


you know, i do feel like shit, i just cannot be like those guys whom talks to you... they can just talk to you like nobody's business... but i can't, i am afraid to even talk to you... i am afraid that i might screw up and look stupid in front of you...


please do not think that i am just thinking about you... i am also worried about my studies... i should, to tell you the truth, you are like a mosquito bite... you are for now, a small little problem... but you can affect when my emotions feel so irritated and frustrated... why can't we even just communicate properly... everything is just one liners...



then again, i am a guy, i should initiate all the conversations and stuff... but i am just afraid that you will over react... i know you will... then again, things will get worst... i might not even be your friend...


i cannot forget you, i will be honest... i just cannot do it...


guess i will just have to wait... until the time is right...


for now...


its just like that...


btw, you totally rock...

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------


went to take photos for the touch rugby girls, i must say, THEY ARE SUPER GOOD... damn, they played really well... ha... they should have won... but, the champion was decided with a coin toss... how lame is that... oh well... i must say, they were just really cool... perhpas thats why girls are just so mysterious and special... they just react differently to how you would expect them to be... another living testimony to just how a guy from a boys school, thought he knows everything about girls... oh well... i called them guys... shit... they were quite pissed i guess... "erm, gals please, not guys"


how dumb kenneth...


of you are a touch rugby girl, and you want the pics, i can pass it to you gals... just inform me... ( if thats the right word to use... ) there are about 84 pics...







-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------


studies are taking the toil on me... i am feeling super tired... i am really fighting a losing battle, i feel like giving up, i cannot go on... i just feel so stupid... so demoralised... oh well... you push me on... i will just do my best, work hard, continue to study, push on, and maybe i can...


but, i want it... i want my dream... and of course, i wanna prove myself... and maybe, impress you...


off with my books...