physics is killing me... totally killing the living shit out of me...





regretted not studying hard enough for physics last year... and now i have to redo everything, restudy everything that makes so little sense to me... oh well... gotta continue this tmr, theres no running away from it... still gotta face it one fine day...








today is a rather normal day for me... was at home the whole day... and it finally rained... with lighting, and strong wind... finally... something that was exciting... the wind, the rain and the sound of the thunder just makes things... feel nice...








was grooving to love psychedelico today... the whole day... doubt many of you guys listen to them... a jap band, with really groovy music... lol... but most of it is sang in english... what an irony right? but the guitar solo, riffs, etc... is superb... its those sort of music you will listen to when you wanna have your beauty nap, as well as during the lazy sunday afternoon all alone in the room... man... i am gonna do that after the mid years... just sleep... and be alone...





read lq's blog... the reality of life struck me again... what really happens after the A levels? what happens if i don't make it? poly? what am i gonna do in poly? what is life goona be like in poly? when i will be so old already... 21 plus? in poly? goodness... i am not being a pessimistic person, but what really happens after that? i dun wanna think about it... the only solution, and i believe lq will agree with me, is to study hard, and make sure i do not end up in that route...








helped my mom cook today... she made otah today... lol, helped her fold all the otah into the aluminium foil, then be her food tester... honestly, how can your mother's food taste bad? it was damn nice... god... i ate 5 bowls of rice today... the otah was really superb...








looked at myself in the mirror today... i am seriously damn fat.... argh... i feel like shit, all the running and pull ups is not doing anything at all... ARGH... i wanna like go anorexia now, just puke everything that i eat, and go skinny... shit man... i am FAT... NEAR OBESE... pls... somebody... give me some pills...





i need to run more, and exercise more... cos i seriously, look like shit... i look like a bloody wanker high on drugs and still diggin it... i must go anorexia... LOL...








anyway...

i am tired... need to slp...

Labels: sleepless tonite again

physics is killing me... totally killing the living shit out of me...





regretted not studying hard enough for physics last year... and now i have to redo everything, restudy everything that makes so little sense to me... oh well... gotta continue this tmr, theres no running away from it... still gotta face it one fine day...








today is a rather normal day for me... was at home the whole day... and it finally rained... with lighting, and strong wind... finally... something that was exciting... the wind, the rain and the sound of the thunder just makes things... feel nice...








was grooving to love psychedelico today... the whole day... doubt many of you guys listen to them... a jap band, with really groovy music... lol... but most of it is sang in english... what an irony right? but the guitar solo, riffs, etc... is superb... its those sort of music you will listen to when you wanna have your beauty nap, as well as during the lazy sunday afternoon all alone in the room... man... i am gonna do that after the mid years... just sleep... and be alone...





read lq's blog... the reality of life struck me again... what really happens after the A levels? what happens if i don't make it? poly? what am i gonna do in poly? what is life goona be like in poly? when i will be so old already... 21 plus? in poly? goodness... i am not being a pessimistic person, but what really happens after that? i dun wanna think about it... the only solution, and i believe lq will agree with me, is to study hard, and make sure i do not end up in that route...








helped my mom cook today... she made otah today... lol, helped her fold all the otah into the aluminium foil, then be her food tester... honestly, how can your mother's food taste bad? it was damn nice... god... i ate 5 bowls of rice today... the otah was really superb...








looked at myself in the mirror today... i am seriously damn fat.... argh... i feel like shit, all the running and pull ups is not doing anything at all... ARGH... i wanna like go anorexia now, just puke everything that i eat, and go skinny... shit man... i am FAT... NEAR OBESE... pls... somebody... give me some pills...





i need to run more, and exercise more... cos i seriously, look like shit... i look like a bloody wanker high on drugs and still diggin it... i must go anorexia... LOL...








anyway...

i am tired... need to slp...

Labels: sleepless tonite again