studied in school today, did some econs, gp and physics... was so tired today, i could not concetrate... you know, i am really feeling crappy now... yes i know God is with me, i know you guys are behind me, i know that its life, but its just so bleak... you know, 6 days to mid years... and to be honest, i am not prepared at all...


how can it be? i do all my tutorials, i do my hw, i read my lecture notes... i do everything that is sufficient, or at least seem sufficient to you guys... but there is a difference between having studied and being prepared... i am not prepared... everything is happening just so quickly...


you know, i ask han rong today, if you could turn back time and repeat your JC1, what will you do?... he says he will turn back to O levels and work his ass off... i was shocked... and i thought... damn, i also wanna do that... i wished i could study harder... go to SAJC... play rugby for school... fufil my dream... i really regretted comming to SRJC... things are just not clicking... there is just the gap between rationality and the future... if i was in any other jc now, plus putting the effort i am putting in now, i know i will do better... but for now... i am really screwed...


i am not saying that the teachers are lously, i am not blaming the school for anything, in fact i love the school... i love SRJC, but its just somethings, are being run in a way that is so irrational... its just irritating... things are happening so fast... i just cannot catch up... besides, if i was not in SRJC... i would not have seen her... and thus... yea...


oh well... lennon then says, no point looking back now, just work hard... oh well... its true... we just have to work... but its a pity that things are being rushed... i could have proved myself if i had the time... then again, better now then never...


then again, i am just very afraid that i will disappoint my parents... money does not drop from the sky, is all hard earned... i just do not want to waste all the money... plus, i want my dreams... i want my RSAF... i want to be a fighter pilot...


but the circumstances are just all going against me... my emotions... my perception of things... why is grwoing up so difficult?


i seriously think i am taking this too far... alone... its just so surreal... how can 2 persons, from different back grounds, but only one has feelings for the other, and the other just feels nth... its just so fake, such a joke... but its just sth that i dunno... its just keeps comming up... why do i blush when people start to talk to me abt her? why am i lost for words when i talk to her... everytime, EVERYTIME i feel like shit after talking to her... like a fool...


i am really being a fool... a fool... can i just live my life as a normal person?
why am i being like this? fuck... is this how it feels like to like someone?


what should i do now? i am suffering now...


to be honest... i know that studies is more important... but i just cannot forget her...



btw... you rock hard you know...


The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed but I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find


its so unfair that i am feeling this way... why does it have to happen to me?

studied in school today, did some econs, gp and physics... was so tired today, i could not concetrate... you know, i am really feeling crappy now... yes i know God is with me, i know you guys are behind me, i know that its life, but its just so bleak... you know, 6 days to mid years... and to be honest, i am not prepared at all...


how can it be? i do all my tutorials, i do my hw, i read my lecture notes... i do everything that is sufficient, or at least seem sufficient to you guys... but there is a difference between having studied and being prepared... i am not prepared... everything is happening just so quickly...


you know, i ask han rong today, if you could turn back time and repeat your JC1, what will you do?... he says he will turn back to O levels and work his ass off... i was shocked... and i thought... damn, i also wanna do that... i wished i could study harder... go to SAJC... play rugby for school... fufil my dream... i really regretted comming to SRJC... things are just not clicking... there is just the gap between rationality and the future... if i was in any other jc now, plus putting the effort i am putting in now, i know i will do better... but for now... i am really screwed...


i am not saying that the teachers are lously, i am not blaming the school for anything, in fact i love the school... i love SRJC, but its just somethings, are being run in a way that is so irrational... its just irritating... things are happening so fast... i just cannot catch up... besides, if i was not in SRJC... i would not have seen her... and thus... yea...


oh well... lennon then says, no point looking back now, just work hard... oh well... its true... we just have to work... but its a pity that things are being rushed... i could have proved myself if i had the time... then again, better now then never...


then again, i am just very afraid that i will disappoint my parents... money does not drop from the sky, is all hard earned... i just do not want to waste all the money... plus, i want my dreams... i want my RSAF... i want to be a fighter pilot...


but the circumstances are just all going against me... my emotions... my perception of things... why is grwoing up so difficult?


i seriously think i am taking this too far... alone... its just so surreal... how can 2 persons, from different back grounds, but only one has feelings for the other, and the other just feels nth... its just so fake, such a joke... but its just sth that i dunno... its just keeps comming up... why do i blush when people start to talk to me abt her? why am i lost for words when i talk to her... everytime, EVERYTIME i feel like shit after talking to her... like a fool...


i am really being a fool... a fool... can i just live my life as a normal person?
why am i being like this? fuck... is this how it feels like to like someone?


what should i do now? i am suffering now...


to be honest... i know that studies is more important... but i just cannot forget her...



btw... you rock hard you know...


The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed but I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find


its so unfair that i am feeling this way... why does it have to happen to me?