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Saturday, 7 June 2008 !@#$% 3:17 pm
went out with some of the people from class for an outing... lol, with joanne, hui wen, bryan, cheong wei, han rong, xue feng.... meet at east coast, had macs, and went for cycling... i must now say that bryan's hair is super cool... damn nice... you guys should have seen it... lol during the bus ride, went pass St. Andrew's village... mixed reactions... i miss the school, and all my friends back there, i regretted not studying hard enough, i felt jealous, i used to come from a school with everything... i felt happy that i was from SA... school was always fun, i always look forward to school... but then again, now, i have some really cool classmates/schoolmates in SRJC... be it the people in class, in my cca, the people that play touch rugby, the track and field guys, the touch rugby gals, some shooting club people, people from other class, the "tripartite of the halo 2", the OGLs, the OG people... give and take in the end... only the guys were cycling cos jaonne and hui wen were faced with some "difficulties"... so the guys decided to cycle to changi village.... and we did... it was about 8+ km away from east coast... and we cycled... lol, it was really fun... and tiring... my ass was numb... now my ass is like half cramp, half numb... like suddenly, the left cheek would like start to spasm... then stop, then the right cheek will start to tick... LOL... its during such times where one would really think alot, about how a few people, from different back grounds, different ways of living their past 17 years of their lives, can meet in one place, and still be able to relate and enjoy each other's company... its really weird when i look back now... it seems as though everything is planned out for us... i was really thankful to have these guys as my friends...    after some soyabean at changi village, we cycled back to east coast... that was where han rong lost it... he went berserk and cycled so fast, that even bryan had a hard time catching up... lol... he was freaking fast... i could not stop laughing the whole time we were cycling... you should see the way han rong was cycling, it was like theres no tomorrow... lol... met lin qiang and lennon on the way, timothy and some 2s18 people... they were having class chalet... cool right? saw some friends too... so nice that they are having some class outing... oh well... played a little soccer, then went to bath... and we headed to parkway parade to have dinner... the gals left early cos they wanted to catch some 9 o'clock show... did not get to talk to them much... so the guys went to the arcade... but first, was to top man... bryan wanted to buy some shirt... damn, he sure look good in those tees... lol... they asked me to try some clothes... i wanted too... but my fats will be like dangling out... lol... i personally like those shirts... it was really nice... but i do not have the built for it... yes... built... bryan sure look damn good in those tees... i need to slim down... i am desperate now... the first thing we played was the basket ball thingy... those arcade game where you threw the balls in to the hoop... lol, it was really addictive... of course, being noobs, we did not scored really well... until some young guy, about 13 years old... cam forward... and played the game... guess what, he beat the high score and scored 700++ points... while we can only manage to score about what? 120+ points? lol... respect up for that dude... han rong, then wanted to play some bowling game... it was really kiddy... and it was like so easy to cheat... one guy just bowl... if the remaining pins are still remaining... just ask your friend to push the rest down... i think that was when the psychotic rage got from han rong to bryan... he went crazy getting the kicks of putting down all the pic manually for a "Strike"... LOL... i guess that was went we all went mad... totally lost control of ourselves... HA! the games did not go to waste, cos there were points redeemed... we changed them for drinks... ha... so... not all have gone to waste... i am currently still addicted to the game... can we go again guys? took a bus alone home... it was a pretty long bus ride home... about 45 minutes... of course, my mp3 was my companion... the song "hero/heroine" kicked in... it is sang by boys like girls, It's too late baby, there's no turning around I've got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud This is how I do When I think about you I never thought that you could break me apart I keep a sinister smile and a hold of my heart You want to get inside Then you can get in line But not this time Cause you caught me off guard Now I'm running and screaming I feel like a hero and you are my heroine I won't try to philosophize I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes This is how I feel And it's so surreal I got a closet filled up to the brim With the ghosts of my past and the skeletons And I don't know why You'd even try But I won't lie You caught me off guard Now I'm running and screaming I feel like a hero and you are my heroine Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin? And I feel a weakness coming on Never felt so good to be so wrong Had my heart on lockdown And then you turned me around I'm feeling like a new born child Every time I get a chance to see you smile It's not complicated I was so jaded And you caught me off guard Now I'm running and screaming I feel like a hero and you are my heroine Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin? (I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)And I feel a weakness coming on Never felt so good to be so wrong Had my heart on lockdown And then you turned me around(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?) I'm feeling like a new born child Every time I get a chance to see you smile It's not complicated I was so jaded (I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)And I feel a weakness coming on Never felt so good to be so wrong Had my heart on lockdown And then you turned me around(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?) I'm feeling like a new born child Every time I get a chance to see you smile It's not complicated I was so jaded. well... i feel so stupid, so "cliche" saying all these stuff... like so "trendy"... wonder if i am going mad... but music... is not just music i believe... its more of a person's emotions on an issue... oh well... this song kinda describe how i feel now... its such an irony... you know, putting in emotions for someone you like... and yet, the other party does not know (or does not even want to care) i can go on ranting, blabbering about how i feel, and yet, the other person, can just feel nothing at all... we all know that this is an important year, A levels... but sometimes, like every other human... i know i am selfish and greedy... i am not blaming it on human weakness , perhaps its just me, perhaps its normal to feel like that, perhaps i am really crazy... but i have met someone of my dreams... you know, the person that you always wanted... oh well... we all know that such stuff is more complicated that an 18 year old can understand, let alone comprehend...so... should i continue to be in this state of mind? or should i forget about it... i have tired the second option... it did not work... then again, if i eventually just leave things as it is... would it be good? in anyway? worst, would someone is the world be better? as for now... i can dare say... she is seriously... quite hard to find... then again, i ask myself, what is this thing... this topic all about... "relationship"... what is this really all about? looking at it from another angle... is it more of a personal gain? i look at myself, i feel selfish... its like... everything revolves around me and me only... can somebody please help me? Labels: if... |