what a day today... i returned to my old self and mugged the whole day... i did chem today, see if my mood allows, i will read a little econs later... ah heck, i am much happier reading Anthony Bourdain's Kitchen Confidential and A Cook's Tour... damn, he is one guy that sure knows how to enjoy his life...

you might be thinking, wow, kennethlimjunliang, you are sure damn hardworking... doing your homework... ha... you gotta be kidding... even people in poly are working their asses off with projects and tests and assignments... all i did today was chem... nothing to be proud of... besides... i still have tonnes of homework not done at all... i bet some people in school have already finished their work and are doing tys now... oh well... then again... university admission... after all, its just like what? 4 months? doing things little by little you see... so yea... kinda bragging, but thats what i should do right?

being honest again... i spent most of the day just thinking about her... i am getting damn fucking sick of this shit... i am really wasting time on her... no point living my life like that... thinking about her, where i can transfer those energy and time on something else... damn... i am seriously damn sick and tired of this... i can't stand this crap... theres no point doing this at all... as if she will fall for me... fuck... i bet some guy in school is already after her... what am i doing then? wasting my time thinking about her, trying to change the way i do things, the way i talk to people, the way i look at myself, the way i would like to talk to her... the way i carry myself... fuck... this is so damn tiring... i am really being pulled down by this stupid emotions of mine... ha, looking back now, i feel like an idiot... i am beginning to wonder if i have spent more time thinking about her than concentrating on my studies...

i am jumping to conclusions... i am very pissed... i am pissed with myself for this whole crap... why can't i just be like myself? why do i want to be somebody that i think she might like? why do i feel so inferior, why can't i treat her like other girls... why? why did i even fall for her? fuck... i give up... theres no point in it anyway... after all, she might already fall for someone else already... someone more capable, better than me... so much for trying to be confident in front of her... ha... foolish... why do i even care so much about her?

then again, what have i really done to sort of like hint to her...? nothing... see how dumb am i? then now here i am falling for her... how smart is that? its like going to the toilet to shit hoping there will be toilet paper and after you shit, find nothing there to clean your ass... how nice...

then now i ask myself, why am i feeling like that... i am fucked...

i know i am gonna change my mind again...

oh well...

back to work...

i need some sashimi now...

what a day today... i returned to my old self and mugged the whole day... i did chem today, see if my mood allows, i will read a little econs later... ah heck, i am much happier reading Anthony Bourdain's Kitchen Confidential and A Cook's Tour... damn, he is one guy that sure knows how to enjoy his life...

you might be thinking, wow, kennethlimjunliang, you are sure damn hardworking... doing your homework... ha... you gotta be kidding... even people in poly are working their asses off with projects and tests and assignments... all i did today was chem... nothing to be proud of... besides... i still have tonnes of homework not done at all... i bet some people in school have already finished their work and are doing tys now... oh well... then again... university admission... after all, its just like what? 4 months? doing things little by little you see... so yea... kinda bragging, but thats what i should do right?

being honest again... i spent most of the day just thinking about her... i am getting damn fucking sick of this shit... i am really wasting time on her... no point living my life like that... thinking about her, where i can transfer those energy and time on something else... damn... i am seriously damn sick and tired of this... i can't stand this crap... theres no point doing this at all... as if she will fall for me... fuck... i bet some guy in school is already after her... what am i doing then? wasting my time thinking about her, trying to change the way i do things, the way i talk to people, the way i look at myself, the way i would like to talk to her... the way i carry myself... fuck... this is so damn tiring... i am really being pulled down by this stupid emotions of mine... ha, looking back now, i feel like an idiot... i am beginning to wonder if i have spent more time thinking about her than concentrating on my studies...

i am jumping to conclusions... i am very pissed... i am pissed with myself for this whole crap... why can't i just be like myself? why do i want to be somebody that i think she might like? why do i feel so inferior, why can't i treat her like other girls... why? why did i even fall for her? fuck... i give up... theres no point in it anyway... after all, she might already fall for someone else already... someone more capable, better than me... so much for trying to be confident in front of her... ha... foolish... why do i even care so much about her?

then again, what have i really done to sort of like hint to her...? nothing... see how dumb am i? then now here i am falling for her... how smart is that? its like going to the toilet to shit hoping there will be toilet paper and after you shit, find nothing there to clean your ass... how nice...

then now i ask myself, why am i feeling like that... i am fucked...

i know i am gonna change my mind again...

oh well...

back to work...

i need some sashimi now...