i am fucking pissed today... i am fucking pissed off with the girls today... and when i say girls, i mean some of the girls then i come across in school... i am putting women aside, because they are generally more matured then girls in school

fuck, i am so pissed, i am not even going to care about the vocab that i am gonna use...

some girls have poor vocab, they just simply cannot understand the word "gentleman".
to these girls, a "gentleman" is a person that gives up their sit for them, a person that opens the door for them, a person that practice "ladies first" rule... i say its all but a big pile of fucking bullshit...

In modern speech, the term is usually democratised so as to include any man of good, courteous conduct, or even to all men. YES, the points mentioned above are just some ways a guy practice his "gentleman"ness... but first of all"... these girls have to understand that just because a person practices such GENTLEMAN does not make him a gentleman... hell, any man can give up his sit for another girl, any man can let the girl move first... FUCK, even a pimp can do that... but these girls must understand that the word "SINCERITY" .

if that is their definition of a gentleman, (a person whom "give" in to women for thier benefit) i find a a fucking joke... so what does this mean? when you queue up in the canteen, its only right for all the guys infront of you to let you go first? fuck, does this also mean that when you are looking for a job next time, a more qualified man should give up his opportunity just because you are a girl? FUCK... the world is not like that BITCHES... if the world is like this please tell me...

fuck... so what? when a guy like me (as viewed by some girls in class as "ungentleman" ugly, and petty)

1. says excuse me before i interrupt you during your consultation.
2. says sorry for the inconvenience caused when i have to pass by some girls and guys in lecture.
3. waiting for girls and guys to finish buying their food and sited on the table before digging in.
4. give up my seat to the elderly and not to the girl in the bus/mrt.
5. respecting your need for a listening ear and say my honest thoughts.
6. says sorry not to be irritating but its only courteous.
7. arriving early for any meeting by half an hour to make sure that i am early.
8. saying thank you when a girl does things more me.
9. not throwing my temple and listening to suggestions.
10. not forcing a girl to do sth she doesn't like.

all these are just nothing in their eyes... i am so surprised... i mean, are these girls fucking stupid? first of all, for a person, anyone to be "gentleman" to another person, begins with respect.

if a girl have the self respect to respect herself as a women... she would be courteous enough to let people (anyone) to go first... take for example the door... these girls would walk towards the door and then just walk in... when a guys (me) happen to walk in at the same time, they would expect me to let them in first... i am not saying its wrong... BUT HAVE YOU SHOWN ME THE RESPECT AND EVEN BASIC COURTESY TO SHOW THE GESTURE OF LETTING THE OTHER PERSON GO IN?????

would you respect a person with poor conduct? would you respect a person whom have no basic courtesy? if a person already have plans for the last parachute, would you say, oh, take it... is only "right for a guy to do so" if the girl gesture to give up the parachute to me, i would will all gratitude force the parachute on her... its the thoughts that count. to says that girls are a thoughtful bunch is wrong.

now, back to the door. if the girl have the gesture to let me in, i would certainly, with all politeness let her in first... the respect is shown... but if the girl is so arrogant that she could only care about herself going in first, i don't see the point to let the girl go in first... that does not mean that i rush to the door and go in first. i am just saying that theres no point... beside, if a girl is like 10 metres away, talking on the phone, walking slowly, do you expect me to wait for her? go to hell... thats not being gentleman... thats being an idiot.

on that note, being a gentleman does not only mean he treats women or girls exceptionally well... a gentleman holds on to values and beliefs that rational. guys today are also a bunch of fucking idiots. take the holding of their girlfriends handbag... i have no objections of holding my girlfriend's handbag when she goes to the toliet... but fuck, you hold your girlfriends handbag for the whole day when shes out with you, ain't it a joke? might as well put the fucking handbag at home bitch. and for such guys, don't you feel fucking idiotic caring your girlfriend's handbag when she have the ability to do so? might as well ask your girlfriend to buy a matching one to fit your outfit... stupid. i can't imagine how some guys will react when their mothers asks them to carry her handbag... but he will react the total opposite when his girlfriend asks him.

might as well ask a "male maid" to follow you shopping and go for movies... fuck... wheres this guy's value? where's his self respect... your girlfriend don't even respect you as a guy... how ironic. yah, some of you say its only "gentleman" to do so... then you might as well hold all the women's bag in the world... "gentleman" what... i don't see you doing that least to your mother... asshole... call yourself a man...

i am not against helping girls to carry things. lets say that she buys alot of stuff, i ought to help her carry, if i can, i would carry everything... now thats a totally different thing from carrying a handbag... which is more gentleman now?

then again, back in school... some girls, will just see a guy they know, she will then throw the stuff she's carrying on that guy, and this guys will happily carry it for her... i say that both the guy and girl are just plain useless... fuck... does these girls even have the brains to think about another person? can you even ask? so when a guy like me, does not take the initiative to help you carry stuff, that will mean i am not a gentleman... FUCK. i respect your decision of your privacy man... fuck, and because of that, you label me as a person whom is petty and not concerned about other peoples feeling and thus say that i am selfish? comeon bitches... you are not even my girlfriend, why the fuck should i even care about you in the first place? when i ask some girls if they needed help, these girls will reply, "you suck, see people like that still must ask" wtf, i am being polite to ask your for your fucking permission.

how you tell me to practice "gentleman"ness on a girl whom does not even respect herself as a women? would you respect a person in the first place like that?

a girl with self respect will put herself before others and think before herself, a person whom is willing to share, is caring and compassionate. ain't this what girls should be? the feminine side of the human being, the matured and understanding side of human beings? well these girls are the immature spoilt bitches that thinks the world revolves round their selfish lives...

so many times i wanted to throw my temple and show my unhappiness, but i am always reminded that people are different, girls are different, i bottle it up... but when such girls, start to say such things about me, i am damn pissed off. how can they say such things when they in the beginning is so unreasonable?

i am not pushing the blame, nor am saying that i am pure, but hey, look at yourself first? can't you even respect my decision to study? aren't you afraid? the A levels is in 2 months, and unless you tell you you have the confidence that you can score well, please fucking respect my decision to study... besides, i am being a "gentleman" to respect my teacher whom took time off her Saturday for consultation with me... how many teachers will actually do that... besides, so what if i am not there? ask yourself honestly, why you wanna perform at the first place, i am not going up there for my personal glory, i am doing it for the sake for showing my gratitude to my teachers, ask yourself honestly how many teams are actually doing that? besides, you say i am not doing anything, i say fuck you, if its not for me and him, spending one month time to think to such song, you won't even be here... besides, if its so simple, ask someone else to play the guitar...

yes, i was wrong not to reply, but then, you already knew in the first place that i am coming to sch right? and by blaming me for everything, why not ask yourself, if you really wanted to confirm, you could have bugged me again... my grandmother's in hospital, so you trying to say that i should forget about it? i am already weak in my academic studies, saying i have poor time management, fuck, you think life is so easy?

i am so fucking pissed, i have given way, can't you even see that i am fucking pissed?

ok, i consider the fact that some people say things without thinking, but at least be considerate, after all, the words you say are just damn fucking hurting...

ok, you might say i am being petty to type my feelings and post on this blog... i respect you to just shoot my feelings on this place, feel fucking lucky i never lost my temple in this school... say i am selfish that i only care about my studies and its all about time management, i say fuck, i want my dream so fucking badly, i would do anything just to make sure i get into the local universities... i am sorry i have to go to such an extent, i am slow, i can't help it... but i will not let trivial things to obstruct me from getting what i want... after all, all i want is to show m gratitude to teachers... if its about personal glory, count me out...

first it was people from my aspire camp, then now its people around me... am i the odd one out? or are the people today just so arrogant and just so selfish, and blind, that they could not tell the difference between sincerity and "for show"...

i am not saying i am the true gentleman, but sometimes, get your definitions right... and just because i am not handsome and i don't look good, not sociable, not proficient academically you label me as a person i am not... sometimes, you people are just so naive, you make yourself look like a fool...

i am damn pissed... i am angry i need to rant

done ranting, back to books...

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i am fucking pissed today... i am fucking pissed off with the girls today... and when i say girls, i mean some of the girls then i come across in school... i am putting women aside, because they are generally more matured then girls in school

fuck, i am so pissed, i am not even going to care about the vocab that i am gonna use...

some girls have poor vocab, they just simply cannot understand the word "gentleman".
to these girls, a "gentleman" is a person that gives up their sit for them, a person that opens the door for them, a person that practice "ladies first" rule... i say its all but a big pile of fucking bullshit...

In modern speech, the term is usually democratised so as to include any man of good, courteous conduct, or even to all men. YES, the points mentioned above are just some ways a guy practice his "gentleman"ness... but first of all"... these girls have to understand that just because a person practices such GENTLEMAN does not make him a gentleman... hell, any man can give up his sit for another girl, any man can let the girl move first... FUCK, even a pimp can do that... but these girls must understand that the word "SINCERITY" .

if that is their definition of a gentleman, (a person whom "give" in to women for thier benefit) i find a a fucking joke... so what does this mean? when you queue up in the canteen, its only right for all the guys infront of you to let you go first? fuck, does this also mean that when you are looking for a job next time, a more qualified man should give up his opportunity just because you are a girl? FUCK... the world is not like that BITCHES... if the world is like this please tell me...

fuck... so what? when a guy like me (as viewed by some girls in class as "ungentleman" ugly, and petty)

1. says excuse me before i interrupt you during your consultation.
2. says sorry for the inconvenience caused when i have to pass by some girls and guys in lecture.
3. waiting for girls and guys to finish buying their food and sited on the table before digging in.
4. give up my seat to the elderly and not to the girl in the bus/mrt.
5. respecting your need for a listening ear and say my honest thoughts.
6. says sorry not to be irritating but its only courteous.
7. arriving early for any meeting by half an hour to make sure that i am early.
8. saying thank you when a girl does things more me.
9. not throwing my temple and listening to suggestions.
10. not forcing a girl to do sth she doesn't like.

all these are just nothing in their eyes... i am so surprised... i mean, are these girls fucking stupid? first of all, for a person, anyone to be "gentleman" to another person, begins with respect.

if a girl have the self respect to respect herself as a women... she would be courteous enough to let people (anyone) to go first... take for example the door... these girls would walk towards the door and then just walk in... when a guys (me) happen to walk in at the same time, they would expect me to let them in first... i am not saying its wrong... BUT HAVE YOU SHOWN ME THE RESPECT AND EVEN BASIC COURTESY TO SHOW THE GESTURE OF LETTING THE OTHER PERSON GO IN?????

would you respect a person with poor conduct? would you respect a person whom have no basic courtesy? if a person already have plans for the last parachute, would you say, oh, take it... is only "right for a guy to do so" if the girl gesture to give up the parachute to me, i would will all gratitude force the parachute on her... its the thoughts that count. to says that girls are a thoughtful bunch is wrong.

now, back to the door. if the girl have the gesture to let me in, i would certainly, with all politeness let her in first... the respect is shown... but if the girl is so arrogant that she could only care about herself going in first, i don't see the point to let the girl go in first... that does not mean that i rush to the door and go in first. i am just saying that theres no point... beside, if a girl is like 10 metres away, talking on the phone, walking slowly, do you expect me to wait for her? go to hell... thats not being gentleman... thats being an idiot.

on that note, being a gentleman does not only mean he treats women or girls exceptionally well... a gentleman holds on to values and beliefs that rational. guys today are also a bunch of fucking idiots. take the holding of their girlfriends handbag... i have no objections of holding my girlfriend's handbag when she goes to the toliet... but fuck, you hold your girlfriends handbag for the whole day when shes out with you, ain't it a joke? might as well put the fucking handbag at home bitch. and for such guys, don't you feel fucking idiotic caring your girlfriend's handbag when she have the ability to do so? might as well ask your girlfriend to buy a matching one to fit your outfit... stupid. i can't imagine how some guys will react when their mothers asks them to carry her handbag... but he will react the total opposite when his girlfriend asks him.

might as well ask a "male maid" to follow you shopping and go for movies... fuck... wheres this guy's value? where's his self respect... your girlfriend don't even respect you as a guy... how ironic. yah, some of you say its only "gentleman" to do so... then you might as well hold all the women's bag in the world... "gentleman" what... i don't see you doing that least to your mother... asshole... call yourself a man...

i am not against helping girls to carry things. lets say that she buys alot of stuff, i ought to help her carry, if i can, i would carry everything... now thats a totally different thing from carrying a handbag... which is more gentleman now?

then again, back in school... some girls, will just see a guy they know, she will then throw the stuff she's carrying on that guy, and this guys will happily carry it for her... i say that both the guy and girl are just plain useless... fuck... does these girls even have the brains to think about another person? can you even ask? so when a guy like me, does not take the initiative to help you carry stuff, that will mean i am not a gentleman... FUCK. i respect your decision of your privacy man... fuck, and because of that, you label me as a person whom is petty and not concerned about other peoples feeling and thus say that i am selfish? comeon bitches... you are not even my girlfriend, why the fuck should i even care about you in the first place? when i ask some girls if they needed help, these girls will reply, "you suck, see people like that still must ask" wtf, i am being polite to ask your for your fucking permission.

how you tell me to practice "gentleman"ness on a girl whom does not even respect herself as a women? would you respect a person in the first place like that?

a girl with self respect will put herself before others and think before herself, a person whom is willing to share, is caring and compassionate. ain't this what girls should be? the feminine side of the human being, the matured and understanding side of human beings? well these girls are the immature spoilt bitches that thinks the world revolves round their selfish lives...

so many times i wanted to throw my temple and show my unhappiness, but i am always reminded that people are different, girls are different, i bottle it up... but when such girls, start to say such things about me, i am damn pissed off. how can they say such things when they in the beginning is so unreasonable?

i am not pushing the blame, nor am saying that i am pure, but hey, look at yourself first? can't you even respect my decision to study? aren't you afraid? the A levels is in 2 months, and unless you tell you you have the confidence that you can score well, please fucking respect my decision to study... besides, i am being a "gentleman" to respect my teacher whom took time off her Saturday for consultation with me... how many teachers will actually do that... besides, so what if i am not there? ask yourself honestly, why you wanna perform at the first place, i am not going up there for my personal glory, i am doing it for the sake for showing my gratitude to my teachers, ask yourself honestly how many teams are actually doing that? besides, you say i am not doing anything, i say fuck you, if its not for me and him, spending one month time to think to such song, you won't even be here... besides, if its so simple, ask someone else to play the guitar...

yes, i was wrong not to reply, but then, you already knew in the first place that i am coming to sch right? and by blaming me for everything, why not ask yourself, if you really wanted to confirm, you could have bugged me again... my grandmother's in hospital, so you trying to say that i should forget about it? i am already weak in my academic studies, saying i have poor time management, fuck, you think life is so easy?

i am so fucking pissed, i have given way, can't you even see that i am fucking pissed?

ok, i consider the fact that some people say things without thinking, but at least be considerate, after all, the words you say are just damn fucking hurting...

ok, you might say i am being petty to type my feelings and post on this blog... i respect you to just shoot my feelings on this place, feel fucking lucky i never lost my temple in this school... say i am selfish that i only care about my studies and its all about time management, i say fuck, i want my dream so fucking badly, i would do anything just to make sure i get into the local universities... i am sorry i have to go to such an extent, i am slow, i can't help it... but i will not let trivial things to obstruct me from getting what i want... after all, all i want is to show m gratitude to teachers... if its about personal glory, count me out...

first it was people from my aspire camp, then now its people around me... am i the odd one out? or are the people today just so arrogant and just so selfish, and blind, that they could not tell the difference between sincerity and "for show"...

i am not saying i am the true gentleman, but sometimes, get your definitions right... and just because i am not handsome and i don't look good, not sociable, not proficient academically you label me as a person i am not... sometimes, you people are just so naive, you make yourself look like a fool...

i am damn pissed... i am angry i need to rant

done ranting, back to books...

Labels: its always me and me only