i came to SRJC knowing that i have spend almost a decade of my life with boys, and i should be mindful of myself, all the things that was told to us in school, ethics and stuff, about the opposite sex... including the fact that i have a sister at home, i understand the fact that sometimes, the guys have to give way to the girls... but what happened today, i will remember all my life, for i am so disgusted with this person, i feel so sick, i do not even want to perform with her tomorrow.

it all begins with video taking... ok, so you said that i was monotone, said that it was all a stupid idea, and that i am not being co-operative... ok you said you do not want to do it... and you put the blame on me... you just throw your temple at me like i am a nobody... ok, fine, i take it as you know, menses. i take it in... in the end, i was the one who came up with all the ideas, and all you did was just act along... how contradicting... so i tell myself again, its periods...

it was not my fault that the electric guitar's jack was screwed, i cannot blame Bryan cos i myself did not check the guitar before... and i have already told you since the beginning, my acoustic guitar will sound very weird with the mike on. i told you there was feed back, i told you that you will not be able to hear me... fine, i take it as not being clear with my concerns... you told me to play at a faster tempo, i play, you tell me to up the key, i up the key, you said you would follow my guitar... (btw, its the guitar that follows the singer...) fine, i see that you can sing well, and that you claim to have the experience of performing... so i listen to you...

but in fact, you are so noob, i feel so ashamed just to be playing with you... in fact, i feel quite insulted actually, cos you make me look so bad... like i can't play the guitar for nuts... ok, again, i try to consider that fact that you feel nervous on stage (sth which i doubt you would have), and i also considered the fact that the PA system was bad... but then, you can't even get basic 4 beat tempo right, i cannot imagine how you perform... ok you have a good voice to cover up, but i guess, its just your problem and not mine... you constantly blame me for not playing consistently, blame me for not co-operating...

ok, nvm, i went to borrow the acoustic from another team... the guitar itself is more expansive, plus it had new string... NEW STRINGS MAN! all i did was played one stanza, and you said that the guitar was lousy... ok, fine, i see that you do not understand the mechanics behind the guitar, but you do not have to scold me, and doubt me about the classical guitar right? its 2 different things, you cannot play an acoustic guitar like as classical guitar... and you do not have to insult me but saying mean things to your friend about me when you try to borrow a classical guitar from your friend in school right? plus the fact you do not have to insult me by stating your stand about wanting to win and not caring about my intentions... i am sorry, but i honestly want to perform for my teachers and thats all, i don't even want to win this competition... and you do not have to insult me... by seeing me as your object to help you win... i feel so disgusted when i heard you said that... the song have lost its meaning... and i do not want to play the song... whats the point?

after all, to begin with, me and him had not spent do much time into it, you won't be singing it at all... so what if you added 2 stanza to it? its copy and paste what... i doubt you have the ability to put aside 1 month of your time to think of such a song... you reply disgusts me... i can't imagine performing with you... i will be a hypocrite... the thought of it makes me sick... "i've come here to win, and i want to win... (i shall not add the other words you said... it will turn ugly)

so, you claimed you said sorry... hello? sorry through sms? you say i am petty, i say i am reasonable... you said you don't even know why you always throw your temple on me, i say its all bullshit, you are just simply picking on me... i try to be nice, considering the fact that tomorrow is a joyful day... i keep it inside... but then, all these... are just crap... how can you not know why yu are angry with another person, you are just being unreasonable... and you still have the cheek to say things about me, hello? if you are a guy, i will make sure you bleed...

ok, never mind, i see it on the fact that we are classmates, i let it go, but then, you totally went overboard when you demanded me to go home to bring my guitar when i have already explained things nicely to you that without the jack, there will be feedback, i also told you that it will sound weird, you just ignore everything and insisted that i must go back to take the guitar, continue to blame me... thank God when one of the TA's gave their comment, it was spot on with all my concerns... i can still remember what you said "stop procrastinating, just go home to take your guitar, its just 2 hours...." 2 HOURS... ARE YOU MAD? can't you even think properly? 2 hours means nothing to you? you still have the cheek to scold me when you see me back in school... i rushed back to school just to hear you say "why never pick up phone"... i can't believe it...

in the end of the day, when whatever you told me to do, failed... you said nothing, you never even considered about it... you can't reach the high note, you sang totally out of tempo, you made yourself look like a fool... i told you everything, but you just did not care... so what if i got the last laugh, i feel so disgusted with myself... i feel like crap... like trash... i can't believe what i saw today, i always thought you were on the right side... i guess why you are in such a position today, you have to blame your attitude toward people...

but i have to thank you, perhaps why our class is like this, is not because of them, but its because of people like you... i feel so ashamed of myself, i need to apologise to the class, i am so disgusted of myself. perhaps they were right after all...


i tried lq, i tried to reason, i tried to talk... i tried being a "gentleman" but i guess its just screwed... i dunno man, i am just wondering if women are like that... no, you are just the minority whom have "masks" on your face... i finally saw the true you, and i don't like what i see...


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i came to SRJC knowing that i have spend almost a decade of my life with boys, and i should be mindful of myself, all the things that was told to us in school, ethics and stuff, about the opposite sex... including the fact that i have a sister at home, i understand the fact that sometimes, the guys have to give way to the girls... but what happened today, i will remember all my life, for i am so disgusted with this person, i feel so sick, i do not even want to perform with her tomorrow.

it all begins with video taking... ok, so you said that i was monotone, said that it was all a stupid idea, and that i am not being co-operative... ok you said you do not want to do it... and you put the blame on me... you just throw your temple at me like i am a nobody... ok, fine, i take it as you know, menses. i take it in... in the end, i was the one who came up with all the ideas, and all you did was just act along... how contradicting... so i tell myself again, its periods...

it was not my fault that the electric guitar's jack was screwed, i cannot blame Bryan cos i myself did not check the guitar before... and i have already told you since the beginning, my acoustic guitar will sound very weird with the mike on. i told you there was feed back, i told you that you will not be able to hear me... fine, i take it as not being clear with my concerns... you told me to play at a faster tempo, i play, you tell me to up the key, i up the key, you said you would follow my guitar... (btw, its the guitar that follows the singer...) fine, i see that you can sing well, and that you claim to have the experience of performing... so i listen to you...

but in fact, you are so noob, i feel so ashamed just to be playing with you... in fact, i feel quite insulted actually, cos you make me look so bad... like i can't play the guitar for nuts... ok, again, i try to consider that fact that you feel nervous on stage (sth which i doubt you would have), and i also considered the fact that the PA system was bad... but then, you can't even get basic 4 beat tempo right, i cannot imagine how you perform... ok you have a good voice to cover up, but i guess, its just your problem and not mine... you constantly blame me for not playing consistently, blame me for not co-operating...

ok, nvm, i went to borrow the acoustic from another team... the guitar itself is more expansive, plus it had new string... NEW STRINGS MAN! all i did was played one stanza, and you said that the guitar was lousy... ok, fine, i see that you do not understand the mechanics behind the guitar, but you do not have to scold me, and doubt me about the classical guitar right? its 2 different things, you cannot play an acoustic guitar like as classical guitar... and you do not have to insult me but saying mean things to your friend about me when you try to borrow a classical guitar from your friend in school right? plus the fact you do not have to insult me by stating your stand about wanting to win and not caring about my intentions... i am sorry, but i honestly want to perform for my teachers and thats all, i don't even want to win this competition... and you do not have to insult me... by seeing me as your object to help you win... i feel so disgusted when i heard you said that... the song have lost its meaning... and i do not want to play the song... whats the point?

after all, to begin with, me and him had not spent do much time into it, you won't be singing it at all... so what if you added 2 stanza to it? its copy and paste what... i doubt you have the ability to put aside 1 month of your time to think of such a song... you reply disgusts me... i can't imagine performing with you... i will be a hypocrite... the thought of it makes me sick... "i've come here to win, and i want to win... (i shall not add the other words you said... it will turn ugly)

so, you claimed you said sorry... hello? sorry through sms? you say i am petty, i say i am reasonable... you said you don't even know why you always throw your temple on me, i say its all bullshit, you are just simply picking on me... i try to be nice, considering the fact that tomorrow is a joyful day... i keep it inside... but then, all these... are just crap... how can you not know why yu are angry with another person, you are just being unreasonable... and you still have the cheek to say things about me, hello? if you are a guy, i will make sure you bleed...

ok, never mind, i see it on the fact that we are classmates, i let it go, but then, you totally went overboard when you demanded me to go home to bring my guitar when i have already explained things nicely to you that without the jack, there will be feedback, i also told you that it will sound weird, you just ignore everything and insisted that i must go back to take the guitar, continue to blame me... thank God when one of the TA's gave their comment, it was spot on with all my concerns... i can still remember what you said "stop procrastinating, just go home to take your guitar, its just 2 hours...." 2 HOURS... ARE YOU MAD? can't you even think properly? 2 hours means nothing to you? you still have the cheek to scold me when you see me back in school... i rushed back to school just to hear you say "why never pick up phone"... i can't believe it...

in the end of the day, when whatever you told me to do, failed... you said nothing, you never even considered about it... you can't reach the high note, you sang totally out of tempo, you made yourself look like a fool... i told you everything, but you just did not care... so what if i got the last laugh, i feel so disgusted with myself... i feel like crap... like trash... i can't believe what i saw today, i always thought you were on the right side... i guess why you are in such a position today, you have to blame your attitude toward people...

but i have to thank you, perhaps why our class is like this, is not because of them, but its because of people like you... i feel so ashamed of myself, i need to apologise to the class, i am so disgusted of myself. perhaps they were right after all...


i tried lq, i tried to reason, i tried to talk... i tried being a "gentleman" but i guess its just screwed... i dunno man, i am just wondering if women are like that... no, you are just the minority whom have "masks" on your face... i finally saw the true you, and i don't like what i see...


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