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emotions comeback intervention time


Monday, 16 March 2009 !@#$% 1:36 pm
Monday


its been a long long time since i last blogged. Life in army is great, cos i have really nice bunk mates to hang out with. to say that life in army is easy will be a lie, it is challenging, both mentally and physically. the army had changed my perspective of life. i used to think that army, or NS, is just a waste of time, perhaps i am successfully "psycho-ed", but i believe, this is just something i have to do, to protect our nation i guess.


just Pass out last wed, am having an 11 day break now. i did not do well for my A levels though i passed every subject. i believe i should be grateful that i had gotten such results, at least i did not get straight "U"s again. however, i am stuck in the middle now, got nowhere to go, i cannot enter any courses in the local university. i plan to finish my NS, then enter poly, and aim for the local universities.



for now, i am ok, just the same old me, but i cannot help to think, am i supposed to be happy? worried? remorse? after all, i still feel that i had let everyone down, especially the teachers that had confidence in me. well, life goes on. as for now, i will concentrate on my NS, then we will decide, if i can save enough, i may go overseas... however, it will be difficult i guess...



i kinda miss the days when i am studying, so much freedom, unlike now, just Saturday afternoons and Sunday evenings that i am actually free. i am not complaining, it is just better to be a civilian after all, so gals out there, cherish your time... as for the guys whom are in NS, or going to NS, its JUST TOO BAD, LOL. oh well, this is our responsibility i guess. so, JUST DO IT.



i guess i have grown in NS, no more self pity, i just have to move on, though i may have failed now, i will still face plenty more challenges ahead, i just have to trust in the Lord, pray and move on. just like i did in NS. as for Her, i have moved on, realised just how stupid i was.



life will be tougher in the coming weeks, training will be harder, i would have to push myself even more, to do the best i can, and hopefully, graduate as a Commando.



For honour and Glory.



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